“For God gave us not a spirit of cowardice, but that of power and of love and of soundness of mind.”—2Ti 1:7 

When faced with injustice, psychological and physical abuse, and efforts to compromise our integrity by powerful human agencies, it is vital to keep in mind who deserves our loyalty. By acknowledging the existence of my Creator, I am also acknowledging his supreme authority, his right to determine how I should behave. I also recognize that any authority man exercises is therefore relative to that of our Creator and Lawgiver.

Where should I put my trust? Some would argue that when faced with pressure from a powerful human agency, especially government, we have no choice but to compromise the principles we hold dear. Is that really so? Please note our Creator’s thoughts on this matter: “Do not become fearful of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; but rather be in fear of him that can destroy both soul and body in Gehenna.” —Matt. 10:28 Yes, our Creator urges us to be more concerned with pleasing him than any human authority, even on the threat of death.” God alone can determine the ultimate life course of all humans. He alone can undo any harm caused to us by fellow humans. He can even reverse the effects of death itself.  

Of course, we respect human authority in the form of governments. We remain in compliance with laws that do not violate Godly principles. However, when they seek to force us to compromise in ways that violates Godly principles, then we must “obey God as ruler rather than men.” —Acts 5:29

Who knows man better? Humans who at best live no more than 70 or so years, or the Creator who not only made man but has witnessed his history since inception? Reflecting on the only logical answer to that question helps me to curb any fear of man that may lead to compromise. Also, I know from personal experience that God’s way is the best way. After more than ten years of attacks and abuse I stand due to following Bible principles. The guidelines God gives through his Word the Bible works better than any advice I could seek from mere humans. It also gives me good reason never to be intimidated by humans who seek to compromise my integrity. My Creator is far wiser than they are. After all, he made them. Therefore, Fear the Maker, Not The Thing made.

“Return evil for evil to no one. Provide fine things in the sight of all men. If possible, as far as it depends upon YOU, be peaceable with all men.” —Romans 12:17,18

Since moving back to Newark, New Jersey (USA) five months ago, my persecution has greatly intensified. There are more participants than ever in daily “gang stalking” routines I encounter. The use of directed energy weapons from adjacent residences has intensified. In fact, many of my closest neighbors and others who I come in contact with on a daily basis share in the harassment I endure. Most days, the majority of people that I directly encounter are participating in my harassment, be it through subtle negative speech or by participation in covert psychological conditioning and humiliation.

It all has a specific motive: To lure me into self-destructive behavior. They need well documented pattens of behavior that can lead to my incarceration, being declared mentally ill, or death. It also is designed to destroy self-esteem, possibly leading to suicide. These routines are a form of intense conditioning meant to induce a complete change in my pattern of behavior Indeed, it now appears that they really want to bring this eleven year experiment to an end, and can only do it by means of my demise. For me, it means starting every day with the determination to choose the best possible response to the myriad of provocations I endure. Yet, I must say, in many ways I feel that my life-course leading up to the past eleven years of harassment has perfectly equipped me to endure this persecution. How so?

For most of my life, I have been a serious student of the Bible, as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. Not merely in a scholarly sense, but more importantly, seeking practical application of the lessons contained in God’s Word. What I have learned and applied has been the key to my survival. It has been an unfailing source of practical wisdom and comfort. When I suffer, I rejoice. Not because of the ill treatment, but because I have responded in accord with my Bible trained conscience and heart. I have firmly resolved that I would rather suffer death than to compromise my principles.

This past evening was one of the worst I’ve endured with a particularly violent use of acoustic weapons (please see this post for an explanation of covert through-the-wall acoustic weapons). The weapons are targeted from an adjacent residence, and were aimed at my head for most of the evening as I slept (or tried to do so). The invisible acoustic volleys were so intense, they blurred my vision along with causing pain and headaches. You see, my antagonists had a plan in place: To use my resultant anger to provoke an encounter on the street the following day. Indeed, there were numerous police officers and squad cars with sirens blaring, an abundant assortment of street level gang stalkers, covert agents and psychologists (who serve as observers and strategists) ready to exploit any angered response on my part. This was to be a big day for them.

Well, what happened? I had my response well thought out. When I was first awakened in the middle of the night by this cruel attack I quickly dismissed all anger. I immediately focused, not on the attack, but on my response, praying for assistance to conduct myself properly. Then, I started my day as I usually do. I got up, prepared for work, and started my commute into New York City.  I proved to be a rather disappointing target. I spoke pleasantly to everyone I had the opportunity to encounter, irregardless of who they were. I had a smile on my face that could not be erased. I even shared a good thought from the Bible with a number of individuals participating in my “gang stalking.” Really, I could barely contain my joy! Why? It was because I was able to answer the intense provocation and torture I had endured with the proper response. I responded as the Christ, my Exemplar, would have responded. I proved loyal to my principles. That is a source of truly meaningful satisfaction.

It proved to be a rather amusing day. It is clear that my antagonists had carefully planned to capitalize on the intense torture I endured. Many of the gang-stalkers who normally cultivate a benign appearance were looking at me in astonishment as I smiled and greeted folks without a hint of vindictiveness. Knowing that I had chosen the right response was such a source of joy for me that it overrode any lingering physical discomfort and pain that I felt.

I had conquered. Not in the shortsighted way that violent men view victory. Rather, I conquered in the way that Jesus conquered. I refused to take on the violence and ill-will of my attackers. I refused to become vindictive in either speech or actions.  I refused to “return evil for evil.” That is what it means to truly conquer. Above all, I sensed the approval of my Heavenly Father by leaving vengeance in his hands, and focusing on treating my neighbor with love.

“In the world YOU are having tribulation, but take courage! I have conquered the world.” —John 16:33

The Ongoing Bad Experiment
Here are some observations made today that further convince me that what I am enduring is a form of covert experimentation monitored and conducted by Federal agencies:

1. One of my harassers was a “police officer” in a Newark Police squad car who pulled up behind a double parked car as I walked past it on my way to Newark Penn Station in downtown Newark. He began to make a big racket with his sirens, continuously blaring them at high volume as I walked by. It was mean-spirited and aggressive, and continued for close to a minute in duration. An evidently high-ranking Newark Police Officer came rushing out of a nearby building undergoing construction and came up to the window of the squad car. “What do you think you’re doing! I will have you transferred! You don’t do that here! I stopped and listened. Sheepishly, the officer in the squad gave the excuse that “someone called,”and quickly drove away. The fact was, he was there precisely to serve as a harassment for me, nothing more. He was caught by one of his own doing so. This supports my observations that when uniformed police officers are used in my harassment, they are acting in covert support of Federal / Military agents involved in these cruel experiments (or may be Federal Agents in disguise), and not in an official capacity as officers.

2. The second incident involved a “stranger” who stood on the street corner near me as I was taking a couple of photos near Bryant Park in New York City (photography is my hobby) this afternoon.  He was seeking to lure me into a conversation. I am an ardent Bible student and will gladly discuss it at “the drop of a hat” with anyone. However, as our impromptu conversation progressed, it was evident that he was testing my recall of specific scriptures and quotations from the Bible. It was a barely disguised memory test more than a conversation. Why did this encounter occur only hours after an especially violent acoustic weapons attack (these weapons were aimed precisely at my head for most of the evening)? No doubt, the covert agencies responsible wanted to monitor the effect of these weapons. They used this conversation to test my mental clarity, trying to gauge the effect the acoustic weapons had on my mental faculties.

3. I would like to share this final observation. An unusually high number of college students appear to be among the “gang stalkers’ employed in street level psychological attacks conducted in New York City. I often use the New York Public Library wi-fi room in the Fifth Avenue and 42nd Street branch to do work. They are typically there en masse and coordinated by cell phones.  That suggests that Federal agencies may be using local colleges or universities in the research that surrounds my persecution. If so, it would be consistent with past CIA human experimentation that has been conducted historically, including MKULTRA.

 Is This the Weapon Used To Torture Me?
The photo above shows an acoustic vortex launcher less-than-lethal weapon as depicted on the SARA, Inc. website in 2002. This quote is taken from the 2002 version of the Scientific Applications & Research Inc. (SARA, Inc.) website (a weapons developer) : “The US army is funding the development and evaluation of various configurations of Acoustic Beam Weapon. These are being considered for several missions where the soldier might benefit from a tunable effect, from WARN - to - Non-Lethal - to - CRIPPLING. The US Air Force, the Los Angeles County Sheriffs and SARA have joined together to define, de-velop and test a “Vortex Launcher” antipersonnel device. The Vortex Launcher projects a highly energetic packet of air at over half the speed of sound. The Vortex - which grows to the size of a pizza - would be aimed at a suspect, and would deliver a knock down punch with minimum chance of injury. Applications include riot control and law enforcement.” -SARA, Inc. Archived Website (2002)

Why I Must Conquer The World
What gives a normal person the apetitite for engaging in willfull acts of psychological and physical torture against complete strangers, persons they hold no personal animosity against, day after day? “At its worst, this has been Satan’s century,” said an editorial published in 1995. “In no previous age have people shown so great an aptitude, and appetite, for killing millions of other people for reasons of race, religion or class.” Said a professor who has written extensively on the subject of evil: “I have had a very strong need to make a difference in the world, to improve the world. But the world is not visibly improving.”

The scale of evil and its relentlessness in our world seems out of proportion to the malice that can be attributed to humans alone. Perhaps you too have come to the conclusion that this is “Satan’s century.” Evil of a magnitude never before seen in human society is waiting at our doorstep. I do not want my thinking and actions to be overtaken by evil. If I do nothing, it will engulf me, stripping me of all moral goodness. Therefore, I must fight, and I must conquer.

Someone’s opinion of you does not have to become your reality —Les Brown

When adversity impacts our lives, especially long term distresses, it can affect the goals or destiny of our life. For some it may mean a distraction from the things that are truly important in life. Yet, for others, it may reveal that their lives have no meaningful goals or destiny. The adversity, in effect, shapes or decides the outcome of their lives. What affect should adversity have on us? How much control should the challenges we face have on the course of our lives? Really, who controls your destiny? Perhaps the following illustration can help us to answer that question.

A sailor sets his ship on a course to arrive at his eventual destination. Along the way, he encounters a terrible storm. In order to arrive at his destination, he may make adjustments in his course to ride out the storm. He skillfully guides his ship as he does so. The storm may cause him to be delayed in arriving. Yet, his destination does not change. As long as he remains in firm control of his ship, the sailor, not the storm, determines his destiny.

Do we see the point? The adversities we face, like that storm, should not change our destiny. We cannot control the storm. However, like that sailor we must remain in control of our ship if we are to reach our destination or goals. So again I ask, who controls your destiny? If that sailor were to give up control of the ship, the unrelenting storm would take control. That would lead to certain shipwreck. With that in mind, ask yourself: Am I still focused on what is really important in life or have I allowed the storm swirling around me to change my destination?

Here are two things I have found that have helped me to re-focus on what really matters in spite of the adversity bearing upon me daily.

1. Do not listen to negative voices.

Words and messages have power. The adversity I face means enduring voices both spoken and unspoken by enemies that are negative and toxic. The message they carry is unrelenting: “You are worthless, you cannot succeed, you are trash and unworthy of life, why don’t you just give up?” Can you imagine a sailor trying to focus on riding out a heavy storm while listening to a critical shipmate, fearful of the storm, constantly telling him that he will fail? He would be wise to ignore such negative voices!

I have found it beneficial to drown out the negative voices of the storm by listening to upbuilding, encouraging, and strengthening voices. For example, the voices contained in God’s Word the Bible have been of great encouragement to me. What powerful and moving examples it contains of persons like me who have faced and overcome adversity. I am also selective in the entertainment, books, and music and friends that I listen to. I seek out sources that provide inspiring messages and meaningful encouragement. By thinking deeply on the positive messages that I hear daily, I minimize the effects of negative speech. Such encouragement and comfort is vital if we are to maintain a healthy emotional outlook and control our destiny.

Much of the online conversation regarding victims of gangstalking and directed energy weapons torture is intensely and willfully negative. Negative talk criticizes and complains, not providing any meaningful encouragement, comfort or assistance. Investing our time in such messages can sap needed emotional strength. Interestingly, I am also the target of messages both overt and subtle that craftily seek to lure me into a confrontation with the government agencies responsible for these attacks. Many of the emails and comments I receive encourage anger and violence, appealing to ego and injured pride. Such negative voices must be soundly rejected. Of course, if there is a legal avenue of recourse I will pursue it. However, in my case, seeking to challenge government agencies is a vain pursuit. After all, what effort is more worthwhile? Keeping in firm control of my ship, my destiny, or trying to control the storm? My very limited resources are better spent focused on my destiny and goals. Life is too short to waste on a pursuit that would only leave me empty-handed and frustrated. For as long as there has been human government, there have been ongoing storms of oppression and injustice. I have no time to waste on politics. My focus and resources are better utilized in controlling my destiny.

2, Set meaningful, reasonable goals, and pursue them.

Do you have a destiny? Are you goal oriented? If not, the storm will set one for you, and it will not be a good one! Do not allow adversity or injustice to determine your destiny. Meaningful, reasonable goals give life direction and value. If we are surrounded by negative influences we can best resist their pressure by exerting a force of our own. Focus on meaningful goals and develop the skills needed to achieve them.

I discovered that it is easy to think that I am doing fine by simply “keeping afloat.” In other words, I begin to idle in place, deceived by the false notion that simply surviving is sufficient. The storm provides distractions that for a time may discourage me from making meaningful progress. However, is it good enough for the sailor to simply stay afloat in a bad storm or does he still have an obligation to reach his destination? Storms can be so severe that they can even cause a ship to retreat for a time. Such setbacks must be seen as only temporary. We must push forward, recognizing that success in life always involves setbacks and failures along the way. Take them in stride and pursue your destiny. Develop your skills. Strengthen your hands. Set goals, keep your focus, control your destiny no matter what storm you face.

“Love Is As Strong As Death Is . . .” —Song of Solomon 8:6

It is vital that the goals we set in life be truly worthwhile if they are to benefit us. Many persons spend their lives in vain or selfish pursuits that leave them full of regrets and emptiness. When our goals reflect a love of God and our fellow man, they imbue our lives with meaning and value. “Life should find us out there in the world doing good things for their own sake.” —Viktor E. Frankl. To cling to love of God and neighbor in a loveless world is the most meaningful pursuit of all.

I can truthfully say that when I daily extend kindness to men of all sorts, I experience genuine joy and contentment in life. Expressing love brings the greatest happiness, not waiting for it. If I waited for the approval and affection of others, my circumstances as a victim of “gang stalking” and psychological torture would overwhelm me. Indeed, my hardship has taught me in a profound way the importance of exercising love as they key to meaning in life.

‘Never pay back evil with more evil. Do things in such a way that everyone can see you are honorable.” —Romans 12:17, Bible, New Living Translation. 

One of the precious benefits of cultivating humility and kindness is that you remain teachable. You can benefit from just about anyone who may have something of value to offer. And sometimes, powerful lessons can come from the most unlikely sources!

I make it a habit to greet and speak to all sorts of people. Being personable and outgoing, is one of the best defenses against developing bitterness that can poison those targeted unjustly with directed energy weapons torture and psychological attacks that include “gang stalking.” Earlier today, while walking to a local store to pick up some groceries, I struck up a conversation with an individual that appeared to be part of a coordinated  group of gang stalkers intent on harassing me. I always seek to keep the conversation in a positive vein, even with those who mean me harm. Today, my conversation yielded a rather interesting reward.

“Good afternoon, may I share a little known fact with you?” I began. The man I approached appeared to be in his early thirties, and a mechanic by profession. “Are you aware that there exists a group of people that Hitler swore to exterminate simply because they refused, out of principle, to give the ‘Heil Hitler’ salute? In fact, even though they were Germans, not Jews, they were some of the first to enter the concentration camps and some of the last to leave!

“I think I know who you are talking about,” he replied. “Were they Jehovah’s Witnesses?

His answer caught me by surprise. Few people know that Jehovah’s Witnesses were severely persecuted in Nazi Germany because of their stand based on religious principles. Hitler was especially irritated because Jehovah’s Witnesses refused to give the ‘Heil Hitler’ salute. In response, he swore to exterminate them. Every major Holocaust museum usually has an exhibit chronicling the oppression Jehovah’s Witnesses endured under the Nazi regime.

“You’re right! I’m surprised that you know that!” I responded. I studied him for a moment. Speaking with a strong accent, he appeared to be an immigrant from a Spanish speaking country, as many here in Newark, New Jersey’s North Ward are.

“Oh yes,” he stated as we stopped on the street corner, “I used to work for an old Jewish fellow who had been in the camps, and he would tell me stories about the Witnesses, and how Hitler tried to break them.” He said that one of the things the SS guards would do to torture them was to make them stand in the middle of shallow pool of water less than a foot deep sometimes for two days without sleeping. If they left the pool they would be shot. If they lay down and fell asleep it would mean that they would drown so they had to remain standing to keep alive. Still, the SS could not break them.”

“I know a lot about the history of the Witnesses in Nazi Germany, but that is one account I never heard before. That’s powerful. Thank you for sharing that,” I continued. “That teaches me the need to stand up for my principles no matter what. If we stick by right principles, no oppression should cause us to abandon them. Thanks again for that bit of history!”

We shook hands, exchanged first names, and parted ways at the intersection. I continued on my way home, quite surprised at what had just occurred. He may not realize it, but that snippet of conversation really made my day. I had been in a melancholic mood, and that conversation lifted my spirits. It was like a cup of cool, refreshing water for a parched throat. I felt strengthened by the experience he shared, and determined to press on in my own battle. I felt as if God has used this person, without his being aware of it, to pass on a bit of encouragement to me. It was a good word from the most unlikely of sources! Of course, this individual did not have my best interests at heart. It is best to keep a healthy distance from this type of person. However, what he said at that moment was a reminder of how important it was for me to remain an integrity keeper under all circumstances.

I was so encouraged by that conversation that I walked up to another neighbor who was part of the ‘gang-stalking” scheme, and introduced myself. “Let me share with you a good reason for always being polite and friendly even to strangers,” I began. I then told him about the conversation I just had and the encouragement I draw from it. “It is my determination to remain loyal to my principles and to always treat others with respect and kindness,” I concluded. I walked away feeling quite good. Today, in a small way, good had conquered evil.

This event reminds me to always be positive, even in negative environments. Doing so may bring an unlikely reward.  Had I been vindictive or shown irritation, that unlikely conversation would never have occurred. But it did, and I am stronger as a result of it.

A Common “Gang Stalking” Tactic
One of the common strategies employed by the covert agents behind gang-stalking was used by the first young man I engaged in conversation. As a target of psychological attacks, I am studied constantly. My antagonists try to destabilize me by surrounding me with individuals who seem to know far too much about my interests and personal life. If engaged in conversation, they are trained to casually bring up names, places or interests that are peculiar to my personal life. For example, the history of Jehovah’s Witnesses in Nazi Germany was a topic I had made a recent subject of study. His reference, as a stranger, to that personal detail is designed to ”rattle” me and instill a  sense of isolation. That was most likely the motive behind the comments made by this young man. In any case, his comments did not instill fear. Rather, they had the opposite effect. I was encouraged by the reminder that throughout history there have been people who championed high principles even under duress. I am not alone in maintaining integrity under trial.

My Inspiration and Guidance
I cannot take credit for the way I handle the adversities thrust upon me. My exemplar in this matter is Jesus Christ. The Gospel accounts speak of  how Jesus was even willing to accept invitations for meals from the Pharisees, a religious group who despised him and was later complicit in his murder. Indeed, even as he dined with them, they were looking to find fault with him and thereby discredit him before the people who accepted his teachings. He knew all too well what it meant to be surrounded by persons who were insincere, cunning and  meant him harm. (Luke 7:37-53, Luke 7:36-50)Yet, Jesus dealt calmly and courageously with them, and never allowed their animosity and cruelty to become a part of his own personality. In doing so, he conquered the evil with the good.

Do you feel isolated, helpless, that no one can fully understand the cruelty and injustice you face on a daily basis? Perhaps you feel that there is no one you can trust; no one you can pour out your heart to? If so, please be assured that there is someone who is fully aware of your sufferings. A friend who really understands. He can be an unfailing support who sticks with you and encourages you when you need it most. In fact, this dear friend has written a letter that reflects his depth of understanding and deep concern for your plight.

Our Heavenly Father is that friend. Rather, than view all human suffering with an uncaring eye, he has lovingly written in advance a letter that expresses his compassion and concern. In this letter, he provides examples of real life individuals who faced adversities quite similar to ours. One such example is the man David who was chosen by God to serve as King of the nation of Israel. Twice in his life, he became an outcast and fugitive, and was targeted by powerful groups that sought to destroy both his name and his very life. In fact, members of his own family participated in these attacks against him. His experiences, and how our Heavenly Father pulled him through can be a wonderful source of strength to us. Indeed, it is not a mere coincidence that this account was recorded and preserved until today. “This is written for the future generation . . .” states Psalm 107:18. The recorded account of David’s experiences is like a personal letter from a friend who truly understands and cares.

Does the following reflect the sort of suffering you face?

“All day long they keep hurting my personal affairs; All their thoughts are against me for bad. They attack, they conceal themselves, They, for their part, keep observing my very steps, While they have waited for my soul.” —Psalm 56:5-6

“Those hating me without a cause have become even more than the hairs of my head. Those bringing me to silence, being my enemies for no reason, have become numerous.. . .” —Psalm 69:4

“They have surrounded me like waters all day long; They have closed in upon me all at one time. You have put far away from me friend and companion; My acquaintances are a dark place.” —Psalm 88:17-18

In view of what you have just read, please ask yourself these questions. Is our Heavenly Father aware of what you are going thru? Are you alone in the distresses you suffer? How can knowing that he understands benefit you?

The Book of Psalms, contains many expressions of what the man David, a servant of God, endured. Those writings are lovingly preserved for you and I, who may well undergo similar trials. By reading these Bible accounts, in particular, Psalms 50 to 102, I have found great comfort in knowing that my Heavenly Father knows what I undergo. He knows your situation as well. Centuries in advance, he decided to pen a letter to us, “this generation,” reflecting his concern for our plight.

However, of even greater benefit is knowing that our Heavenly Father can come to our aid, and be an unfailing source of comfort and strength. Indeed he proved to be that for the man David, and enabled him to cope with and triumph over his adversities. Please note the following proof that David provided of Gods unfailing love and support:

“. . .Whatever day I get afraid, I, for my part, shall trust even in you.” —Psalm 56:3. Like David, can you trust in our Heavenly Father during fearful times?

“When my disquieting thoughts became many inside of me, Your own consolations began to fondle my soul.” —Psalm 94:19. Reading God’s Word was a source of consolation for David that protected him from being emotionally overwhelmed by his anxieties.” Can you take advantage of the emotional strength that comes from reading God’s Word?

“He will certainly turn to the prayer of those stripped [of everything], And not despise their prayer.” —Psalm 102:17
David well knew what it meant to lose everything. Although his fellow man despised him, he knew that God cherished him as a friend, and carefully listened to his prayers. What confidence can you have if you sincerely turn to God, and pray for his help?

Overwhelmed and distressed, eyes glistening with tears, David called upon the kindness and compassion of his God, Jehovah, begging him, “Do put my tears in your skin bottle. Are they not in your book?” —Psalm 56:8. David was confident of God’s compassionate concern. It was as if God was preserving each of his tears in a “skin bottle.” In David’s day, skin bottles had a well earned reputation for preserving and keeping water cool, even in the intense heat of the desert sun. What this illustration shows is that David knew that our Heavenly Father never forgets the suffering we undergo. Not only is he aware of our suffering but also the emotional impact of those trials. He greatly values those memories and preserves them. Please be assured that by drawing close to God, you can have the same comfort and assurance.

David endured and survived these distressing times in his life because of God’s help. “I have become just like a miracle to many people; But you are my strong refuge.” —Psalm 56:8. Yes, so powerful was the aid that God provided, that David’s survival was like a miracle in the eyes of his enemies. David had success because he made God his refuge.

If we pray to God today and are willing to accept his guidance and direction we too can enjoy the wonderful comfort, strength and protection that David enjoyed. You are not beyond his help. You are not alone. Sincerely ask for his help in prayer and be willing to accept his guidance. Be assured that our Heavenly  Father understands your suffering and will tenderly care for you as well.

” . . . researchers began to see that the elements of the personality type most clearly linked to heart disease and other health disorders are hostility, suspiciousness, aggressiveness and a volatile temper.”
—New York Times, Dec. 30, 1990

Coping with the challenges of being a victim of covert government psychological aggression in the form of “gang stalking” and directed energy weapons torture demands the exercise of wisdom. Many victims of such attacks who email in response to my articles reveal a deep seated bitterness and hatred toward their antagonists. Allowing such feelings to simmer day after day is the worst things we can do to our health and longevity. In fact, research has found that the long term effects of hostility has a more detrimental effect on mortality than cigarette smoking, obesity and a high-fat diet!

Here is an excerpt from an article entitled “If Anger Ruins Your Day, It Can Shrink Your Life” in the December 13, 1990 New York Times that is worthy of serious consideration. The full article can be found here. This information helps me to monitor my own responses to provocation. May it help you to cope wisely with any distressing challenges you face in life.

“People who often explode in hostile rages or who sit around fuming over every perceived slight may be doing more than making themselves unpleasant. They may be killing themselves.

Researchers have gathered a wealth of data lately suggesting that chronic anger is so damaging to the body that it ranks with, or even exceeds, cigarette smoking, obesity and a high-fat diet as a powerful risk factor for early death.

“Our studies indicate that hostile, suspicious anger is right up there with any other health hazard we know about,” said Dr. Redford Williams, a researcher in behavioral medicine at the Duke University Medical Center. Anger and Cholesterol

In results presented at a recent meeting of the American Heart Association, Dr. Williams reported that people who scored high on a hostility scale as teen-agers were much more likely than their more cheerful peers to have elevated cholesterol levels as adults, suggesting a link between unremitting anger and heart disease.

In another recent study, Dr. Mara Julius, an epidemiologist at the University of Michigan, analyzed the effects of chronic anger on women over a period of 18 years. She found that women who had answered initial test questions with obvious signs of long-term, suppressed anger were three times more likely to have died than those who did not harbor such hostile feelings.

“For many women, constant suppressed anger seems to be a stronger risk factor for early mortality than smoking,” said Dr. Julius, who announced her results at a recent meeting of the Gerontological Society of America.

Other researchers are teasing apart the complex welter of anger’s physical effects on the body. They are finding that some people who are prone to anger have an overactive “fight or flight” response, generating excessive amounts of stress hormones when confronted by life’s every bump.

At the same time, such people have an underactive cool-down response, lacking sufficient hormones designed to counter the effects of stress.

The findings suggest that some people may have an inborn predisposition to excessive anger, although scientists said that whether or not one gave in to rage may aggravate or diminish that inherited tendency.

Many researchers said anger-prone people could reduce the risk of early mortality by changing knee-jerk, hostile responses.

The latest studies of anger stem from research in the 1960’s on the Type A personality, which is exemplified by the hard-driving, competitive, perfectionist executive who was thought to have an unusually high risk of heart disease. Studies Show Lethal Effects

But as researchers looked more closely, they realized that not all people with that personality type were in danger of heart disease, nor could all the traits associated with the type be statistically or experimentally linked to early death. For example, neither competitiveness nor an addiction to work could be shown to be physically harmful.

Instead, researchers began to see that the elements of the personality type most clearly linked to heart disease and other health disorders are hostility, suspiciousness, aggressiveness and a volatile temper.”

“Wisdom is the prime thing. Acquire wisdom; and with all that you acquire, acquire understanding.” —Proverbs 4:7

How should we feel about neighbors and others who actively participate in the psychological aggression of group stalking? Sometimes a bit of insight helps us to avoid the anger that comes with a purely emotional response when under attack. I have talked to a number of those stalking me over the years. I can strike up a conversation very easily and never exhibit hostility. They quickly sense that I am good natured and not looking to harm them in any way. Of course, they will not talk about what they do, But many will hold a conversation. I honestly believe that most persons who operate at the lowest rung of these schemes have no clue what they are a part of. They have been seduced into believing they are doing something good and lawful and are largely ignorant of the full picture.

I spoke with one “stalker” today who apparently had the task of keeping me under surveillance as I cleaned my car at my local car wash. I came up to him with a big smile. “Have you ever observed how neighbors have lost all concern for each other?” I asked. “They will sneak around in the hope of catching their neighbors in some small mistake. In spite of that, I always make the effort to greet those around me because as a Christian I must show love for neighbor. If I do not love my neighbor and do good for others, then I am not really a Christian.” I added.

Weill I consider myself a good Catholic,” he replied. I could tell that he got the point I was trying to make.  “Well, it is always good to meet someone who has a belief in God, we need more of that,” I said with a smile. How do you think Jesus would treat his neighbors if he were alive today? Would he sneak around looking for something to condemn them or would he try his best to help his neighbor?” The fellow looked at me and smiled. Then he said “I must respect you for the way you approached me and what you said.” At that point, we started discussing my car (I had a for sale sign on it) and the economy and had a pleasant conversation that lasted for another five minutes or so. We both left the conversation smiling.

That sort of conversation tells me alot about most of the people involved in group or gang stalking at the lowest level. They are not demons but are largely deceived or blissfully ignorant of both the victims they track and what is being done to them. Many of them are clearly “working poor” who are getting a very modest sum for what they do. Many have no emotional involvement, it is just a way to supplement income.

However, I have also spoken to a few of the higher ranked individuals who are contracted or employed by the covert agencies developing these schemes. More often than not, their arrogance and condescension is palpable. To them, we are little more than guinea pigs or criminals whose lives have no value. Yet, it must be said that even in this group, I have seen glimpses of genuine humanity. However, what can they do? They must be under enormous pressure to remain loyal to the covert organizations that employ them, and could well suffer swift retaliation if they are perceived as “whistleblowers.”

Doing some research on the history of secret societies helped me to understand better how these schemes operate. Historically, in most secret societies, the darkest secrets of the group are held only by those at the highest levels. Those at the lowest levels must rise in the ranks, and prove themselves worthy of gaining access to more power and knowledge. I see that basic principle at work in “gang stalking” as well. Those at the lowest level are not privy to all that the organization is doing or why. They may even be deceived regarding the true nature of the organizations they support.  This has helped me to view those at the lowest levels with a bit more understanding. They are in some ways also victims who are manipulated.

I do not consider it my role to retaliate against my persecutors. As a Christian, I want to be a force for love and peace even in the face of injustice and suffering. Of course, that becomes a real challenge in the face of constant psychological attacks and covert torture. However, I am determined to reflect The Christ’s loving, gracious disposition under all circumstances. He is my leader, and set the perfect example for me to follow in this regard.

“. . . Christ suffered for you, leaving you a model for you to follow his steps closely . . . When he was being reviled, he did not go reviling in return. When he was suffering, he did not go threatening, but kept on committing himself to the one who judges righteously.” —1 Peter 2:21

I am about to face some of the most difficult days since the adversity thrust upon me in the form of directed energy weapons torture and coordinated psychological attacks began. I face a foe, that, on my own I cannot fight. As I navigate through the various adversities caused by covert Federal agencies , and face the prospect of losing income, home, and financial stability, some may wonder how I am able to cope; especially after eleven years of continuous psychological and physical attacks! Quite well, thank you!

Even now, as I face the myriad of challenges imposed upon me, I am calm. Not just outwardly, but with an inner calm that allows me to face adversity without lost temper, bitterness, rage or despair. I can only attribute this extraordinary calm under pressure to my Heavenly Father, Jehovah God.

You may ask, ‘How does God comfort us and give us the courage to bear our pain?’ He does so mainly through his Word, the Bible, and through the gift of prayer. Paul tells us that God lovingly gives us His Word so that “through the comfort from the Scriptures we might have hope.” Additionally, through heartfelt prayers, we can come to experience “the peace of God that excels all thought.”—Romans 15:4; Philippians 4:7.

The Bible writer David said that during his time of great anxiety and isolation, consolations from the scriptures “fondled his soul.” Just as a mother’s touch and soothing words can calm a crying child, the scriptures can calm our troubled heart. I can personally attest to the consoling power of the scriptures! Reading the Bible is a wonderful way to calm anxiety and focus on healthy thoughts. In addition, we can receive “the peace of God,” through prayer, a calmness that protects the mind and heart. This “peace” is a tranquility from God that enables us to continue to think and act wisely, without being overwhelmed by troubling thoughts. It also protects our physical health from the ravages of distress. It “excels all thought” in that we are helped to cope with any distress, no matter how troubling. From personal experience, I say: That peace is real!  It allows me to endure present woes with a calmness that puzzles my persecutors.

These gifts that God gives has enabled me to bear up, not matter what the challenge! Paul says that God “comforts us in all our tribulation.” (2 Corinthians 1:4) No matter what pressure, anguish, or suffering we may experience, God can give us the necessary courage and strength to bear up. Is that not reassuring? So with all I endure, the very best part of my story is meeting these hardships successfully in the comfort and courage that only Jehovah God can provide.

Addendum: The Need for Calmness and Good Manners

It appears that a primary objective of the adversity thrust upon me is to force me to abandon civility, control, and good manners. Therefore, maintaining calmness  and composure is not merely desirable, it is critical to my survival. A help in this regard is maintaining a positive view of people. I look for the good even in those employed in the harassment against me, and treat all with good manners. By dignifying others, I dignify myself. Doing so neutralizes much of the psychological warfare employed against me. It is the most emotionally healthy way of coping with the ill treatment of others. Responding to ridicule and humiliation with respect is also a powerful way to teach by example.

As human society continues its inexorable moral decline and is stripped of even the normal fellow feeling and neighborliness that holds civilization together; a dark cruelty takes its place. We don’t like to admit that. We want to be viewed as civilized and enlightened even as unbridled cruelty pulses just beneath our thin veneer of respectability. Life has lost its value. As that occurs, anyone who is viewed as less than a peer becomes a potential target. They become less than human.

Such is the spirit behind gang-stalking. The gang-stalkers feels protected by their collective and exercises their disdain for any considered unsuitable of membership. That same spirit can also be seen in the rise of a new type of crime formerly nonexistent in our culture. There is a deeply disturbing article on the nationwide rise in violent, unprovoked attacks on the homeless in The New York Times of August 8, 2008, entitled “Attacks on Homeless Bring Push on Hate Crime Laws.”

According to the article, there is an alarming rise in unprovoked attacks upon homeless people by working class men and teenagers. This fast rising trend has moved some states to consider legislation declaring them hate crimes. “The assailants are outsiders (not homeless): men or in most cases teenage boys who punch, kick, shoot or set afire people living on the streets, frequently killing them, simply for the sport of it, their victims all but invisible to society.”

Michael Stoops, Executive Director, National Coalition for the Homeless, said social prejudices were “dehumanizing” the homeless and condoning hostile treatment. He pointed to a blurb titled “Hunt the Homeless” in the current issue of Maxim, a popular men’s magazine. It spotlights a coming “hobo convention” in Iowa and says: “Kill one for fun. We’re 87 percent sure it’s legal.”

When you dehumanize a group or individual it is quite easy to justify any act of violence against them. It becomes sport. That is the spirit of gangstalking at its heart. Gangstalking is an exercise of social prejudice that uses psychological aggression as a form of hostility. It will decline into open physical aggression soon enough. That is, after all, where human society is heading.

“But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here. For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self-assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal, having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness, betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride], lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God . . . 2 Timothy 3:1-4

The recent news story regarding the arrest of Black Harvard Professor Henry Louis Gates, Jr. in his own home by a White police officer added to an internal discussion I’ve been having regarding the distinction between true masculinity and false. I am not taking sides in this issue. Rather, this regrettable incident teaches me why I must cultivate true masculinity. How we react under pressure or humiliating circumstances reveals the sort of masculinity we possess. False masculinity is like fool’s gold. Literal fool’s gold (or pyrite) is far more common than real gold and can fool the inexperienced eye. It has none of the value or qualities of real gold. And so it is with false masculinity. It can appear to be genuine, and is far more common than true masculinity. However, when put to the test, false masculinity disappoints, offering no real value to its owner.

As a target of directed energy weapons torture and “gang stalking,” I am constantly and willfully provoked. The objective of this organized and sustained psychological attack is to lure me into self-destructive behavior. Therefore, losing control or engaging in abusive behavior is not an option. Any concept of masculinity that promotes that option must be soundly rejected as false. Knowing the difference between true masculinity and false is critical to my survival and success.

How common it is today to see individuals imbued with authority mistreating those they consider inferior! Many have the notion that a real man must be “tough,” answering any perceived insult or slight with swift retribution. Such individuals are inflexible, and will often reject any truth or evidence that proves their cherished stereotypes or perceptions to be false. They believe that a “show of force” is the only solution to every problem they face. They consider admitting a mistake a sign of weakness. They put the preservation of their own ego or self-importance ahead of the needs of others. How much misery the world has suffered at the hands of the powerful acting out of false masculinity!

Contrast that with the marvelous example of true masculinity demonstrated by Jesus Christ as a man on earth. He was the Son of God, and as such was truly superior to the people he came to earth to help. Yet, he never looked down on common men. Rather, he treated sinful, imperfect humans of all sorts with dignity. Unlike Jesus, the Jewish religious leaders of his day despised common folk, using the Hebrew term “Amhaarets” (people of the dirt, accursed) to describe them. They had even less respect for women, considering them to be untrustworthy and devious. What a refreshing and courageous contrast Jesus provided to the common notions of masculinity in that day! In addition, Jesus exercised exemplary self-control under provocation or humiliating circumstances. Although he held great authority and power, he never abused it in an effort to retaliate against his enemies. His enemies could never provoke him into losing self-control. What extraordinary masculinity!

Here are two events that demonstrate the true masculinity of Jesus.  The first reveals his behavior toward those normally considered inferior by the powerful men of that day. The second shows his exemplary self-restraint under humiliating circumstances.

One day Jesus was walking with his disciples to attend an important engagement, followed by a large crowd. Among that crowd is a poor woman, making her way towards Jesus as inconspicuously as possible. That woman has suffered from a humiliating medical condition for 12 long years: a flow of blood. Such a running discharge of blood was not only embarrassing, it also rendered her unclean under the Mosaic law. Anyone touching her, or her garments, was required by law to wash and be unclean until the evening. She had no business, some would argue, even being near that crowd in her condition. Yet, she was determined to touch the garment of Jesus. Out of faith, she was convinced that by doing so she would be healed of her distressing condition. Working her way through the crowd, she quietly approaches and touches the hem of Jesus garment from behind. Immediately, she senses that the flow of blood has dried up. She is healed!

“Who was it that touched me?” Jesus asked. How shocked the woman must have been to hear that question! How could he know that she touched him with such a large crowd hemming him in? Jesus disciple Peter, being close by, wondered why Jesus asked that question: “The crowds . . . are closely pressing you, and do you say, “Who touched me?” Looking around for the woman, Jesus explains: “Someone touched me, for I perceived that power went out of me.” Healing others draws on Jesus vitality so he knew that a brief touch had resulted in someone being cured.

The woman, with great fear and trembling, comes and falls down before Jesus. With the entire crowd looking on, she tells Jesus the whole truth about her illness and how she had just been cured. Imagine the shame she felt in revealing her affliction in public!  Did Jesus respond to her with the same low regard for the poor and women as the religious leaders of his day? Did he become annoyed, perhaps even angry at the inconvenience she caused him? Did he think: “I’m an important man, how dare she touch me in her condition!” Was he inflexible, rebuking her for this violation of the law, thereby adding to her humiliation? Not at all! In his response, Jesus demonstrates true masculinity.

Moved by her confession, and taking into consideration the extreme distress that caused her to break the law, Jesus comforts her: “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace, and be in good health from your grievous sickness.” Jesus displayed, not annoyance, or an inflexible application of law. Rather, his compassion and understanding was an expression of true masculinity. It is also noteworthy that he accorded this woman an audience and dignity rare in the culture of that day.

Can we see the difference between true masculinity and false in this account? Do we have the tendency to be merciless and condescending toward those considered inferior to us? Do we denigrate others to make ourselves appear to be more important or powerful? Do we put ego and personal pride above the needs of others, including the lowly? Jesus Christ’s personality was refreshingly free of these abusive traits. In that, he serves as the finest example of true masculinity that has walked the earth. —Matthew 9:18-22, Mark 5:21-34, Luke 8:40-48

Here is the second account: Jesus Christ knows that his cruel and unjust death was only hours away.  However, he was focused on equipping his disciples to cope with the trials that lay ahead for them. To that end, he focused his energies on teaching them. One such lesson was taught by example when Jesus, although being their Teacher and Master, girded a towel and proceeded to wash the feet of each of his disciples. (John 13:3-5) This menial task was usually reserved for the lowliest servant in Jewish households of the day. However, by performing this humble act, Jesus wanted to stress by example that his disciples must willingly serve others, not “lord it over” people as was common among political leaders. In this Jesus demonstrated a facet of true masculinity: humbly putting the interests of others ahead of his own.

The Bible account indicates that Jesus washed the feet of all twelve of his disciples in attendance, including Judas Iscariot, his betrayer. Amazingly, Jesus was well aware that Judas was secretly plotting his murder! —John 13:2 Yet, he calmly washed his feet along with the others. We know that Jesus was a man of deep feelings. Can you imagine how being so close to the man who would betray him to murderers affected his emotions? How would you feel in this situation? Yet, Jesus calmly performed this humble act, without revealing what he knew to the other disciples, or allowing his emotions to get the better of him.

It is this singular act, washing the feet of a wicked betrayer that reveals to me the sterling quality of masculinity found in Jesus. Why did he do it? Jesus, by example, remained obedient to two commands that must be complied with by every Christian man today: “Love your enemies,” (Luke 6:27) and, leave vengeance in the hands of God. (Romans 12:19) With extraordinary humility and restraint, Jesus remained obedient, not allowing his emotions to rule his actions; evidence of genuine masculinity. —Philippians 2:3,4 Also, by calmly submitting to the injustice and abuse he would suffer, he was able to provide outstanding benefits for all true Christians down to this day.

This account is one I often bring to mind. How impressive!  Jesus could calmly interact with the man who plotted his murder, even extending kindness while exercising exemplary restraint.  How can I imitate this facet of true masculinity? Well, I am often in the company of individuals seeking to provoke, harass, mock and mislead me. “Gang stalking” is form of constant psychological aggression. In my case, the greatest good can only be accomplished by calmly treating all with dignity and restraint, even those who mean me harm. If I gave in to anger and retaliated, I would not be working in my best long-term self interests. Nor would I as a Christian, be obedient to God.  Cultivating true masculinity like Jesus, is a powerful aid in this regard, don’t you agree?

I write this, not to counsel others, but to remind myself of the need to continue cultivating true masculinity. The so-called ‘toughness’, stubbornness, arrogance and cruelty seen in so many today does not solve problems. It engenders a prideful disregard for the plight of others, especially those we may view as inferior. As a long-term victim of directed energy weapons torture, and ‘gang-stalking,’ I see it every day. This false masculinity drives much of the abuse I ( and perhaps many others) undergo. Sadly, many women mimic this undesirable trait as well. Like fools’ gold, many are duped by counterfeit masculinity and strip themselves of self-worth by adopting it.

In deciding how to handle provocative and humiliating encounters, I have had to take a close look at the concept of true masculinity vs false. True masculinity is best seen when interacting with those we may consider inferior or subject to us in some way. How we treat such ones reveal what we are at heart. True masculinity never tramples the rights of others. The truly masculine can endure humiliation and provocation with patience and restraint. Indeed, the qualities inherent in true masculinity are worthy of imitation by both men and women.

To the extent that I cultivate true masculinity, I can successfully cope with the daily indignities that I face. It is a source of strength, and helps me to avoid the emotional responses that can lead to disaster. Above all, I glorify my Heavenly Father, the finest example and source of true masculinity.