Is there ever a boring day for victims of covert torture with directed energy weapons and ongoing psychological attacks? For me, the recent weeks have been quite interesting. There has been a stepping up of psychological attacks against me since I wrote the recent post on The Presidential Commission for the Study of Bioethical Issues. In fact, there appears to be an all-out effort by the covert agencies harassing me to deliver a “knock-out punch.” Psychological attacks, covert “no-touch” torture, and strategies designed to lure me into an angered response have ramped-up considerably. Of course, these strategies are well choreographed in settings that are recorded and witnessed by other covert participants. Amazing as it may seem, I am now in my thirteenth year of these ongoing abuses!
I have also received recent veiled threats on my life and well being. Two, in one week. The first, was a very loud indirect warning from a guy warning that people who don’t keep quiet can ‘disappear.’ The second was in a nearly empty restaurant from an older man I see each time I eat here. He warned me in a carefully worded way that people often ‘disappear’ when they don’t ‘do the right thing.” I simply listened and politely ended the conversation when I finished my meal. It is senseless to argue “the right thing” with people who support the psychological abuse and torture of fellow citizens outside of the law.
Here is one example of the recent strategies used in an attempt to provoke me. This one took place in a pizza parlor I frequent near my home this past week. I stopped in to purchase a breakfast sandwich. Normally, some of the workers in this pizza parlor have given the usual verbal signals that they are covertly supporting my surveillance. But otherwise, they have been polite, and have not tampered with my food (at least, as far as I’m aware). I always treat them, along with anyone else I see, here in a friendly and respectful manner.
However, on this morning, one of the workers made a rather dramatic display of unsanitary handling of the sandwich I ordered. He picked up my eggs, bacon and cheese from the grill with bare hands (or removed them from the spatula by hand when it was too hot to pick up directly from the grill) and then made an extra effort to carefully and slowly adjust all of the ingredients on the sandwich with bare hands. This is a skilled short-order cook who typically handles food properly. So this was highly unusual for him. This behavior, done only with my food as I watched, was intended to provoke and humiliate me. In the store standing behind me were two “gang-stalkers,” with a third outside. No doubt, the covert agencies behind these encounters were closely monitoring everything. They were waiting for an angered response that could be recorded and exploited as I received this “defiled” sandwich. It would be a black mark on my reputation that they work so hard to provoke.
I paid for the sandwich without mentioning the incident, thanked the cook and calmly left the restaurant. About a block away I discarded the sandwich. It was probably okay to eat. However, I just wanted to leave this incident behind me as quickly as possible. My peace of mind means more to me than $5 lost on a discarded sandwich. Besides, I have more productive things to focus on.
This may seem to be a minor incident to most. However, it is not. Typically, when these psychological attacks occur, it is after an extended period of sleep deprivation. Perhaps sleep has been interrupted for weeks before such an attack ( this may be done by the use of noxious gases, noise, covert microwave or acoustic weapons). What psychologists know quite well is the connection between sleep deprivation and emotional responses. A person sleep deprived even for a couple of nights is far more likely to lose control of emotions. Their responses to any action, even minor ones, become much more aggressive. The mind loses its ability to discern between small and major incidents when sleep deprived. The amygdala, the area of the brain that oversees emotional reactions, goes into overdrive, responding to every incident in a big way. Therefore, a seemingly minor incident like the one in the pizza parlor can produce a big emotional response in a sleep deprived person. The agencies creating these torture programs can use emotional outbursts under these conditions as a reason to diagnose a targeted person as having a pathological mental condition. This may be why sleep deprivation is such a big part of the attacks targeted persons undergo. It is an extraordinarily cruel and inhumane action (a willful act of torture) to attack innocent fellow citizens in this way.
” . . . the deep emotional centers of the brain (the amygdala) were approximately 60% more reactive when you’re sleep deprived . . . even healthy people’s brains mimic certain pathological psychiatric patterns when deprived of sleep.” -Dr. Mathew Walker, director of the University of California, Berkeley’s Sleep and Neuroimaging Laboratory
In hindsight, I have come to realize just how important sleep deprivation has been in these attacks. Remote acoustic and microwave weapons, noise harassment, and chemical dispersants are all in the arsenal of my attackers. I can see why this has been the one relentlessly consistent element of my abuse. Being robbed of sleep for weeks, months and years produces an emotional vulnerability that these ongoing psychological attacks are designed to exploit.
Therefore, you may ask, how have I been able to survive for more than thirteen years without a single outburst or fit of rage? What is my secret? Well, as you are no doubt aware, the mind is like the body, in that, what you feed it plays a large role in how it performs. I have been a lifelong student of the Bible, as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. My principles, and the patterns that govern my behavior have deep roots in what I know of God. Although I am far from perfect, my default responses to adversity will most often reflect loyalty to Christian principles. Just as a strong, healthy body more effectively survives a wound or blow, a strong mind is much harder to compromise when under assault. For this reason, I have also been especially careful to avoid movies and other entertainment that promote “good-guy violence.” Exposure to propaganda that glorifies retaliation and ‘justified’ violence could weaken the principles guiding my thinking. Feed the mind a poor diet and it will fail you when under attack.
I always thank my Heavenly Father for the Bible principles that helps to me respond wisely in these potentially harmful encounters. I have all the help I need, and good reason to be confident regarding the future. In this case, maintaining peace and self-control, rather than reacting due to bruised ego was the smart thing to do. ” . . . because a live dog is better off than a dead lion. . .(Ecclesiastes 9:4) Knowing how the sleep deprived brain works, I am less likely to trust my emotions in such a setting.
“Look! I have made your face exactly as hard as their faces and your forehead exactly as hard as their foreheads. Like a diamond, harder than flint, I have made your forehead. You must not be afraid of them, and you must not be struck with terror at their faces . . .” -Ezekiel 3:8,9
Addendum: The Second Encounter, Not Unlike The First . . .
I decided to return to the pizza parlor (see incident above) the following day. After all, why let a little incident like this rob me of good local pizza? As I approached, the cook who had spoiled my sandwich a day earlier was standing alone, just inside the display window, drinking coffee and watching me as I approached. That detail is worthy of mention because he is typically behind the counter cooking, and never alone. I stepped in, and with a smile on my face, asked pleasantly: “Sir, may I please order a medium pizza with pepperoni, onions and peppers? And, please, sir, make it for me the way you would make it for your own family.” “Of course,” he replied, “we’ll take care of you.” There was a bit of nervousness on his part as he went behind the counter and started to make the pizza.
Another patron had quietly slipped in after me, witnessing our exchange. She was, of course, a “gang stalker,” hoping to play witness to a display of anger or frustration on my part. I could sense that she was surprised to see such a polite encounter. “I am one of Jehovah’s Witnesses,” I told her without prompting. “We are able to make a point emphatically without resorting to profanity or verbal abuse.” She looked at me with a blank stare. Without saying a word, she left. As the cook began to make my pizza, I realized that a small audience had quietly gathered just outside the pizzeria’s front window. Also, there were at least four other young men standing in the kitchen area that I had not noticed before.
Having been through this before, I knew what was happening. The humiliating events of yesterday were the setup for this second encounter. They were coached, and ready to exploit any outrage on my part. The men who had been hiding behind the counter were there to provide potentially-violent backup in case I became hostile. The outdoor “bystanders” were also eyewitnesses who were no doubt there to give an account of the incident that would not be in my best interest if the police were called. And, make no mistake, the police would show up in seconds if things went according to their plans.I had seen this setup a dozen times or more over the past decade.The goal was to use my response to destroy my good name among my neighbors.
I patiently waited for my pizza. In fact, I was so confident that the cook (the same one who made my ‘defiled’ sandwich the day before) would make a great pizza, I never once looked behind the counter to check on him. When it was ready, he called me over. I paid for it, thanked the cook, exchanged final pleasantries, and left. I could see nervous smiles on the faces of some of the “bystanders” as I left the pizzeria. They had gathered for nothing. I had not given them the show they were looking for. By the way, it was a great pizza, loaded with extra cheese!
Well now, what do you think? Was this the right response? Or, should I have made a big issue of correcting the slight against me a day earlier, showing my outrage with a few choice words? In truth, that was exactly what my antagonists wanted me to do.
This cook, along with many of the people who work in the local shops I frequent, are neighbors and acquaintances that I must interact with on a daily basis. I do not hate them. I do know that they are being compelled to support these psychological attacks against me for a variety of reasons. They may be pressured, deceived, intimidated . . . whatever the reason is, I do not hate them. Also, I do not want them to hate me. As far as it depends upon me, I will make peace with them. Therefore, I use these encounters to show them what sort of person I really am. These folks, misled into harassing me, see me repeatedly responding with kindness to verbal taunts and humiliating treatment. By my responses, I am silently proving that I am unworthy of such ill treatment. In fact, some of them, at times have let me know, in subtle ways, that they respect me. They can sense the injustice, but are powerless to do anything about it. Indeed, in this matter, I am reminded of Nazi Germany, where the vast majority of decent citizens went along with state-sponsored injustices out of fear for their own lives and livelihoods.
”If possible, as far as it depends upon YOU, be peaceable with all men. . .” (Romans 12:18)