“Return evil for evil to no one. Provide fine things in the sight of all men. If possible, as far as it depends upon YOU, be peaceable with all men.” —Romans 12:17,18

Since moving back to Newark, New Jersey (USA) five months ago, my persecution has greatly intensified. There are more participants than ever in daily “gang stalking” routines I encounter. The use of directed energy weapons from adjacent residences has intensified. In fact, many of my closest neighbors and others who I come in contact with on a daily basis share in the harassment I endure. Most days, the majority of people that I directly encounter are participating in my harassment, be it through subtle negative speech or by participation in covert psychological conditioning and humiliation.

It all has a specific motive: To lure me into self-destructive behavior. They need well documented pattens of behavior that can lead to my incarceration, being declared mentally ill, or death. It also is designed to destroy self-esteem, possibly leading to suicide. These routines are a form of intense conditioning meant to induce a complete change in my pattern of behavior Indeed, it now appears that they really want to bring this eleven year experiment to an end, and can only do it by means of my demise. For me, it means starting every day with the determination to choose the best possible response to the myriad of provocations I endure. Yet, I must say, in many ways I feel that my life-course leading up to the past eleven years of harassment has perfectly equipped me to endure this persecution. How so?

For most of my life, I have been a serious student of the Bible, as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. Not merely in a scholarly sense, but more importantly, seeking practical application of the lessons contained in God’s Word. What I have learned and applied has been the key to my survival. It has been an unfailing source of practical wisdom and comfort. When I suffer, I rejoice. Not because of the ill treatment, but because I have responded in accord with my Bible trained conscience and heart. I have firmly resolved that I would rather suffer death than to compromise my principles.

This past evening was one of the worst I’ve endured with a particularly violent use of acoustic weapons (please see this post for an explanation of covert through-the-wall acoustic weapons). The weapons are targeted from an adjacent residence, and were aimed at my head for most of the evening as I slept (or tried to do so). The invisible acoustic volleys were so intense, they blurred my vision along with causing pain and headaches. You see, my antagonists had a plan in place: To use my resultant anger to provoke an encounter on the street the following day. Indeed, there were numerous police officers and squad cars with sirens blaring, an abundant assortment of street level gang stalkers, covert agents and psychologists (who serve as observers and strategists) ready to exploit any angered response on my part. This was to be a big day for them.

Well, what happened? I had my response well thought out. When I was first awakened in the middle of the night by this cruel attack I quickly dismissed all anger. I immediately focused, not on the attack, but on my response, praying for assistance to conduct myself properly. Then, I started my day as I usually do. I got up, prepared for work, and started my commute into New York City.  I proved to be a rather disappointing target. I spoke pleasantly to everyone I had the opportunity to encounter, irregardless of who they were. I had a smile on my face that could not be erased. I even shared a good thought from the Bible with a number of individuals participating in my “gang stalking.” Really, I could barely contain my joy! Why? It was because I was able to answer the intense provocation and torture I had endured with the proper response. I responded as the Christ, my Exemplar, would have responded. I proved loyal to my principles. That is a source of truly meaningful satisfaction.

It proved to be a rather amusing day. It is clear that my antagonists had carefully planned to capitalize on the intense torture I endured. Many of the gang-stalkers who normally cultivate a benign appearance were looking at me in astonishment as I smiled and greeted folks without a hint of vindictiveness. Knowing that I had chosen the right response was such a source of joy for me that it overrode any lingering physical discomfort and pain that I felt.

I had conquered. Not in the shortsighted way that violent men view victory. Rather, I conquered in the way that Jesus conquered. I refused to take on the violence and ill-will of my attackers. I refused to become vindictive in either speech or actions.  I refused to “return evil for evil.” That is what it means to truly conquer. Above all, I sensed the approval of my Heavenly Father by leaving vengeance in his hands, and focusing on treating my neighbor with love.

“In the world YOU are having tribulation, but take courage! I have conquered the world.” —John 16:33

The Ongoing Bad Experiment
Here are some observations made today that further convince me that what I am enduring is a form of covert experimentation monitored and conducted by Federal agencies:

1. One of my harassers was a “police officer” in a Newark Police squad car who pulled up behind a double parked car as I walked past it on my way to Newark Penn Station in downtown Newark. He began to make a big racket with his sirens, continuously blaring them at high volume as I walked by. It was mean-spirited and aggressive, and continued for close to a minute in duration. An evidently high-ranking Newark Police Officer came rushing out of a nearby building undergoing construction and came up to the window of the squad car. “What do you think you’re doing! I will have you transferred! You don’t do that here! I stopped and listened. Sheepishly, the officer in the squad gave the excuse that “someone called,”and quickly drove away. The fact was, he was there precisely to serve as a harassment for me, nothing more. He was caught by one of his own doing so. This supports my observations that when uniformed police officers are used in my harassment, they are acting in covert support of Federal / Military agents involved in these cruel experiments (or may be Federal Agents in disguise), and not in an official capacity as officers.

2. The second incident involved a “stranger” who stood on the street corner near me as I was taking a couple of photos near Bryant Park in New York City (photography is my hobby) this afternoon.  He was seeking to lure me into a conversation. I am an ardent Bible student and will gladly discuss it at “the drop of a hat” with anyone. However, as our impromptu conversation progressed, it was evident that he was testing my recall of specific scriptures and quotations from the Bible. It was a barely disguised memory test more than a conversation. Why did this encounter occur only hours after an especially violent acoustic weapons attack (these weapons were aimed precisely at my head for most of the evening)? No doubt, the covert agencies responsible wanted to monitor the effect of these weapons. They used this conversation to test my mental clarity, trying to gauge the effect the acoustic weapons had on my mental faculties.

3. I would like to share this final observation. An unusually high number of college students appear to be among the “gang stalkers’ employed in street level psychological attacks conducted in New York City. I often use the New York Public Library wi-fi room in the Fifth Avenue and 42nd Street branch to do work. They are typically there en masse and coordinated by cell phones.  That suggests that Federal agencies may be using local colleges or universities in the research that surrounds my persecution. If so, it would be consistent with past CIA human experimentation that has been conducted historically, including MKULTRA.

 Is This the Weapon Used To Torture Me?
The photo above shows an acoustic vortex launcher less-than-lethal weapon as depicted on the SARA, Inc. website in 2002. This quote is taken from the 2002 version of the Scientific Applications & Research Inc. (SARA, Inc.) website (a weapons developer) : “The US army is funding the development and evaluation of various configurations of Acoustic Beam Weapon. These are being considered for several missions where the soldier might benefit from a tunable effect, from WARN - to - Non-Lethal - to - CRIPPLING. The US Air Force, the Los Angeles County Sheriffs and SARA have joined together to define, de-velop and test a “Vortex Launcher” antipersonnel device. The Vortex Launcher projects a highly energetic packet of air at over half the speed of sound. The Vortex - which grows to the size of a pizza - would be aimed at a suspect, and would deliver a knock down punch with minimum chance of injury. Applications include riot control and law enforcement.” -SARA, Inc. Archived Website (2002)

Why I Must Conquer The World
What gives a normal person the apetitite for engaging in willfull acts of psychological and physical torture against complete strangers, persons they hold no personal animosity against, day after day? “At its worst, this has been Satan’s century,” said an editorial published in 1995. “In no previous age have people shown so great an aptitude, and appetite, for killing millions of other people for reasons of race, religion or class.” Said a professor who has written extensively on the subject of evil: “I have had a very strong need to make a difference in the world, to improve the world. But the world is not visibly improving.”

The scale of evil and its relentlessness in our world seems out of proportion to the malice that can be attributed to humans alone. Perhaps you too have come to the conclusion that this is “Satan’s century.” Evil of a magnitude never before seen in human society is waiting at our doorstep. I do not want my thinking and actions to be overtaken by evil. If I do nothing, it will engulf me, stripping me of all moral goodness. Therefore, I must fight, and I must conquer.

Someone’s opinion of you does not have to become your reality —Les Brown

When adversity impacts our lives, especially long term distresses, it can affect the goals or destiny of our life. For some it may mean a distraction from the things that are truly important in life. Yet, for others, it may reveal that their lives have no meaningful goals or destiny. The adversity, in effect, shapes or decides the outcome of their lives. What affect should adversity have on us? How much control should the challenges we face have on the course of our lives? Really, who controls your destiny? Perhaps the following illustration can help us to answer that question.

A sailor sets his ship on a course to arrive at his eventual destination. Along the way, he encounters a terrible storm. In order to arrive at his destination, he may make adjustments in his course to ride out the storm. He skillfully guides his ship as he does so. The storm may cause him to be delayed in arriving. Yet, his destination does not change. As long as he remains in firm control of his ship, the sailor, not the storm, determines his destiny.

Do we see the point? The adversities we face, like that storm, should not change our destiny. We cannot control the storm. However, like that sailor we must remain in control of our ship if we are to reach our destination or goals. So again I ask, who controls your destiny? If that sailor were to give up control of the ship, the unrelenting storm would take control. That would lead to certain shipwreck. With that in mind, ask yourself: Am I still focused on what is really important in life or have I allowed the storm swirling around me to change my destination?

Here are two things I have found that have helped me to re-focus on what really matters in spite of the adversity bearing upon me daily.

1. Do not listen to negative voices.

Words and messages have power. The adversity I face means enduring voices both spoken and unspoken by enemies that are negative and toxic. The message they carry is unrelenting: “You are worthless, you cannot succeed, you are trash and unworthy of life, why don’t you just give up?” Can you imagine a sailor trying to focus on riding out a heavy storm while listening to a critical shipmate, fearful of the storm, constantly telling him that he will fail? He would be wise to ignore such negative voices!

I have found it beneficial to drown out the negative voices of the storm by listening to upbuilding, encouraging, and strengthening voices. For example, the voices contained in God’s Word the Bible have been of great encouragement to me. What powerful and moving examples it contains of persons like me who have faced and overcome adversity. I am also selective in the entertainment, books, and music and friends that I listen to. I seek out sources that provide inspiring messages and meaningful encouragement. By thinking deeply on the positive messages that I hear daily, I minimize the effects of negative speech. Such encouragement and comfort is vital if we are to maintain a healthy emotional outlook and control our destiny.

Much of the online conversation regarding victims of gangstalking and directed energy weapons torture is intensely and willfully negative. Negative talk criticizes and complains, not providing any meaningful encouragement, comfort or assistance. Investing our time in such messages can sap needed emotional strength. Interestingly, I am also the target of messages both overt and subtle that craftily seek to lure me into a confrontation with the government agencies responsible for these attacks. Many of the emails and comments I receive encourage anger and violence, appealing to ego and injured pride. Such negative voices must be soundly rejected. Of course, if there is a legal avenue of recourse I will pursue it. However, in my case, seeking to challenge government agencies is a vain pursuit. After all, what effort is more worthwhile? Keeping in firm control of my ship, my destiny, or trying to control the storm? My very limited resources are better spent focused on my destiny and goals. Life is too short to waste on a pursuit that would only leave me empty-handed and frustrated. For as long as there has been human government, there have been ongoing storms of oppression and injustice. I have no time to waste on politics. My focus and resources are better utilized in controlling my destiny.

2, Set meaningful, reasonable goals, and pursue them.

Do you have a destiny? Are you goal oriented? If not, the storm will set one for you, and it will not be a good one! Do not allow adversity or injustice to determine your destiny. Meaningful, reasonable goals give life direction and value. If we are surrounded by negative influences we can best resist their pressure by exerting a force of our own. Focus on meaningful goals and develop the skills needed to achieve them.

I discovered that it is easy to think that I am doing fine by simply “keeping afloat.” In other words, I begin to idle in place, deceived by the false notion that simply surviving is sufficient. The storm provides distractions that for a time may discourage me from making meaningful progress. However, is it good enough for the sailor to simply stay afloat in a bad storm or does he still have an obligation to reach his destination? Storms can be so severe that they can even cause a ship to retreat for a time. Such setbacks must be seen as only temporary. We must push forward, recognizing that success in life always involves setbacks and failures along the way. Take them in stride and pursue your destiny. Develop your skills. Strengthen your hands. Set goals, keep your focus, control your destiny no matter what storm you face.

“Love Is As Strong As Death Is . . .” —Song of Solomon 8:6

It is vital that the goals we set in life be truly worthwhile if they are to benefit us. Many persons spend their lives in vain or selfish pursuits that leave them full of regrets and emptiness. When our goals reflect a love of God and our fellow man, they imbue our lives with meaning and value. “Life should find us out there in the world doing good things for their own sake.” —Viktor E. Frankl. To cling to love of God and neighbor in a loveless world is the most meaningful pursuit of all.

I can truthfully say that when I daily extend kindness to men of all sorts, I experience genuine joy and contentment in life. Expressing love brings the greatest happiness, not waiting for it. If I waited for the approval and affection of others, my circumstances as a victim of “gang stalking” and psychological torture would overwhelm me. Indeed, my hardship has taught me in a profound way the importance of exercising love as they key to meaning in life.

‘Never pay back evil with more evil. Do things in such a way that everyone can see you are honorable.” —Romans 12:17, Bible, New Living Translation.