Jesus knew that his disciples needed to cultivate specific qualities that would help them to work together and endure hardship. To that end, only hours before his death, he focused his energies on teaching them. One such lesson was taught by example when Jesus, although being their Teacher and Master, girded a towel and proceeded to wash the feet of each of his disciples. -John 13:3-5 This menial task was usually reserved for the lowliest servant in Jewish households of the day. However, by performing this humble act, Jesus wanted to stress by example that his disciples must willingly serve others, not “lord it over” people as was common among political leaders.

The Bible account indicates that Jesus washed the feet of all twelve of his disciples in attendance, including Judas Iscariot. Amazingly, Jesus was well aware that Judas was secretly plotting his murder! -John 13:2 Yet, he calmly washed his feet along with the others. We know that Jesus was a man of deep feelings. Can you imagine how being so close to the man who would betray him affected his emotions? How would you feel in this situation? Yet, Jesus calmly performed this humble act, without revealing what he knew to the other disciples, or allowing his emotions to get the better of him.

It is this singular act, washing the feet of a wicked betrayer that reveals to me the depth of humility found in Jesus. Why did he do it? A noble characteristic of humility is that it allows us to focus on the needs of others even as we face extreme hardship. Jesus felt that the lesson in humility he was teaching his beloved disciples, was more important than his personal feelings regarding Judas. With extraordinary humility, he washed the feet of all, including his betrayer, so that his disciples could be taught without distraction. He pushed aside his own feelings and interests to meet the needs of his disciples. He held his disciples in such high esteem, that he considered their needs more important than his own. -Phillipians 2:3,4 Do you see the lesson we can learn from this?

As victims of psychological attacks, we know that our persecutors are hoping that we will resort to extremes of anger or show terror. If you fly into a fit of rage or burst into tears and express hurt or fear, he is getting what he wants. (see Tips on Coping With Bullying). However, like Jesus, we can even be in close quarters with our persecutors and still maintain complete emotional control by cultivating humility.

One of the intended byproducts of psychological warfare is forcing the victim to become so focused on his own misery that he isolates himself from others emotionally. Such thinking makes one mentally unbalanced and prone to rash behavior. However, the beauty of humilty is that it helps us to remain focused on the interests of others in spite of our own adversities. We avoid becoming overwhelmed by our problems. Humbly serving the needs of others is one of the most emotionally healthy activities we can engage in. It is especially beneficial during times of personal crisis, as it works to protect emotional and mental health.

We can be certain that Jesus true disciples never forgot his extraordinary display of restraint and humility. It provided an appealing motivation for their own cultivation of this priceless quality. Can you see how cultivating humility in imitation of Jesus can help you?

“We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.” - Viktor E. Frankl, Neurologist, Author and Holocaust survivor

An Additional Comment

There is another vital lesson that came to mind as I reflected on the example Jesus set in washing the feet of his betrayer, Judas. The truly kindhearted person can display kindness even toward the unappreciative.  Genuine kindness is not hypocritical, or merely a thin veneer of politeness and courtesy that quickly dissipates when others are rude.

I am intensely concerned that the daily barrage of rudeness that confronts me never darkens my heart. Writing this blog is a constant reminder that I must follow the advice I pass on to others! Far more than any physical or psychosomatic  harm my persecutors may cause, I worry about losing my humanity. Losing the ability to feel genuine love for my fellow man is the price I simply cannot pay. Reflecting on and sharing the positive lessons I learn through these writings helps me to hold on to that most precious of possessions—love of neighbor.

“You must love your neighbor as yourself.”—Matthew 22:39

Help for the Victims

Victims of bullying, particularly the young, face a difficult challenge—that of maintaining balance under pressure. When someone bullies you, he is probably eager to throw you off balance emotionally. He is hoping that you will resort to extremes of anger or show terror. If you fly into a fit of rage or burst into tears and express hurt or fear, the bully is getting what he wants. So he may try to provoke the same reaction again and again.

What can you do? Consider the following suggestions. They are written primarily with the young in mind, but the principles may also apply to adults dealing with bullies.

▪ Keep cool. Don’t give in to rage. The Bible wisely advises: “Let anger alone and leave rage.” (Psalm 37:8) When your temper is out of control, you give the bully power over you, and you are likely to do things you will only regret.—Proverbs 25:28.

▪ Try to put thoughts of revenge out of your mind. Vengeance often backfires. At any rate, revenge is not really satisfying. One girl, who was beaten up by five youths when she was 16 years old, recalls: “I decided in my heart, ‘I will get even with them.’ So I got some help from my friends and took revenge on two of my attackers.” The result? “I was left with an empty feeling,” she says. And her own conduct worsened afterward. Remember the Bible’s wise words: “Return evil for evil to no one.”—Romans 12:17.

▪ When things appear to be getting heated, get away quickly. The Bible says: “Before the quarrel has burst forth, take your leave.” (Proverbs 17:14) In general, try to steer clear of those who tend to bully. Says Proverbs 22:3: “Shrewd is the one that has seen the calamity and proceeds to conceal himself, but the inexperienced have passed along and must suffer the penalty.”

▪ If bullying persists, you may need to speak up for yourself. Choose a moment when you are calm, look the bully in the eye, and speak in a firm, level voice. Tell him that you don’t like what he is doing—that it is not funny and that it hurts. Do not resort to insults or challenges.—Proverbs 15:1.

▪ Talk to a responsible, caring adult about the bullying. Be specific about the problem, and ask for help in handling it. Do the same in your prayers to God, and this can be a wonderful source of help and comfort.—1 Thessalonians 5:17.

▪ Remember that you have value as a person. The bully might want you to think that you don’t matter, that you deserve to be treated badly. But he is not your judge. God is, and he looks for the good in each of us. It is the bully who becomes less worthwhile by resorting to such conduct.

As a long-term victim of directed energy weapons torture and community policing based gang-stalking, I can certainly attest to this through personal observation. Persecutors employed as “gang-stalkers” or harassers will often study a victim’s face hoping to see signs of pain or sadness. They often laugh or smirk as they go about the task of inflicting psychological suffering on others. They have learned to replace empathy with a perverse pleasure from the suffering of their victims.

Is it unreasonable to call this transformation in a bullies mind a perversion? Above all, it highlights the wisdom for a victim, of never returning “evil for evil” to anyone. To do so, perverts the natural empathy in the victim’s brain. His mindset becomes the virtual twin of his tormentor when he begins to find pleasure in vindictiveness and retaliation. Responding to evil with “good” is the best response, protecting the brain from developing an unhealthy thirst for voyeuristic pain.

“Return evil for evil to no one. Provide fine things in the sight of all men. If possible, as far as it depends upon YOU, be peaceable with all men.” - Roman 12: 17-18

Additional References:
Brain Scan Shows Bullies Enjoy Others Pain - Washington Post

“Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord” -Romans 12:19 (New International Version)

As any victim of government sponsored directed energy weapons torture and psychological attacks (including community policing based “gang-stalking”) is well aware, one of the greatest challenges we face is maintaining self control. The daily barrage of humiliating actions we undergo are designed to provoke us, luring us into self-destructive behavior. Like a skilled tightrope walker, we must cultivate self-control. Indeed, our very survival is dependent on staying in firm control of our emotions and actions. That can be a challenge, as the desire to retaliate in some way may at times seem overpowering. To counter such ill-advised thinking, we may need to adjust our attitude and view self-control as the superior response, a facet of our true inner strength.

Sadly, popular entertainment glorifies the “hero” that answers all provocation and ill treatment with an outburst of violence, vanquishing his enemies as the admiring audience cheers him on. Unlike movie violence, real-life retaliation often carries severe, life changing penalties and losses. The person who keeps himself under control is better equipped to make decisions that are in his best long-term interests. Those who lose control of their emotions, giving in to anger, often live to regret the outcome of their actions.

Do you see self-control as your strength? Not merely control of your actions. This includes controlling your emotions as well. Unless we highly value the ability to rein in our emotions, we will develop grudges and bitterness which lead to outbursts of anger. We will also damage our health, and healthy relationships, compounding the effects of the psychological attacks we undergo.

“By over-responding to conflict and not trusting others, hostile people might also be at risk because they don’t benefit physiologically from their social relationships; People most prone to anger were almost three times more likely to have a heart attack than those with low anger in a recent study of 12,986 participants…” - Angry Thoughts, At-Risk Hearts, Monitor on Psychology (American Psychological Association)

In view of the foregoing, it is vital that we divest ourselves of the perverse admiration of “good guy” violence and retaliation often seen in movies, and see the tremendous benefits that developing self-control can bring us. Such self-control is a measure of true masculinity and emotional maturity, that will contribute to greater success in all facets of life.

For a skilled tightrope walker like Charles Blondin, a loss of self-control while performing could have meant great physical harm or even death. Is it really any different for us as victims of psychological warfare? When we highly value and cultivate self-control, we protect our health, and may well preserve our lives. Therefore, view self-control as your strength!

“He that is slow to anger is better than a mighty man - Proverbs 16:32

If the highest authority in your life is a human government, where do you turn for help when that authority becomes the source of cruel injustice, victimizing you or your loved ones? Truthfully, those who cannot see beyond human authority have nowhere to turn! It is, no doubt, a crushing burden for them to know that they have no alternative, no higher power that can be trusted. However, for those who have a firm belief in a loving and concerned Creator, it is quite different. We can appeal to and derive comfort from a higher, uncorruptable authority. That authority, our God, becomes our salvation when all human authority fails us.

One of my favorite sources of comfort is a Bible passage that quotes directly from the Son of God, Jesus Christ, regarding how God feels about us personally. “Do not two sparrows sell for a coin of small value? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground without YOUR Father’s [knowledge]. But the very hairs of YOUR head are all numbered. Therefore have no fear: YOU are worth more than many sparrows.” -Matthew 10:29-31

Think of what that means. In Jesus’ day the sparrow was the cheapest of the birds sold as food to the poor. If God places such value on a single sparrow, of how much greater worth is a human! As Jesus explained, he knows every detail about us. Why, the very hairs of our head are numbered! Knowing that God values us so highly as individuals (in spite of our imperfection and sinful nature) is a source of great strength and courage to me. It provides a solid basis for soundly rejecting the opinions of my persecutors, and protecting my mental health in the process.

Viktor E. Frankl, a neurologist and Holacaust survivor who studied the impact of long term injustice on concentration camp inmates and survivors, noted that the knowledge that there “is a meaning in one’s life” is critical to survival. Knowing that God values me personally gives my life meaning. It is the key to my success in surviving the decade of psychological warfare I have endured. Developing a keen awareness of how our Creator values us personally can helps us to transcend any suffering we may undergo.

Millimeter wave imaging is receiving major media news coverage as the technology is being introduced into airports for passenger security screening. The Denver Post (link to article) provided the graphic above that shows how this technology functions and the images produced. The use of millimeter wave imaging in conjunction with remote, through-the-wall directed energy weapons was explored in an earlier post on badexperiment.com. To see the full sized graphic, click here.

“In a study of more than 4,600 18- to 30-year-olds, Jackson’s team (Smith College, Northampton, Mass) found the more hostile, frustrated and mean-spirited the personality, the lower the pulmonary (lung) function. In other words, “it appears harboring hostility hurts,” according to the study, published in the journal Health Psychology…The more rapid the decline in lung function, the sooner people die…The effects of hostility, like smoking, accumulate over the years, gradually gnawing away at health.” The full report on this study is found on the Montreal Gazette (newspaper) website.

What lesson can we take from this? Mean-spirited, hostile people damage their own health and age faster than the kindhearted and forgiving. Isn’t that a good reason to avoid mean-spirited attacks on others? And, if we are the victims of such attacks, maintaining better health is a powerful incentive to let go of resentment and bitterness.

It may be purely anecdotal, but in observing the individuals employed in psychological attacks against me, I have long sensed the connection between mental disposition and health. I have seen enough of these individuals to know that over time, abusing others ravages ones’ own health. My persecutors often look quite a bit older and more “worn” than what is typical for their age. Now, science has revealed why!

Finally, for those who are victims of psychological attacks and directed energy weapons, learn to let go of anger and the desire to retaliate. You will feel (and look) much better if you do!

I have no fear of my persecutors. Indeed, for over eleven years I have not run, hid or cowered in the face of unrelenting cruelty. I am not ashamed. To their utter disbelief, I have remained calm, resolute and uncompromised. This ongoing injustice may well cost my life. I consider death preferable to being seduced by evil. My antagonists have tortured, taunted, isolated, pressured, humiliated, and slandered me in an effort to provoke bitterness and retaliation. I have not, and will not step outside of the law, nor take the law into my own hands to obtain relief. In spite of over ten years of suffering they cannot charge me with a single act of violence either in word or deed. All violence committed has been by their own hands. Indeed, they are drenched in violence. For this, I am not ashamed.

Above all else, I deeply appreciate the Bible-based education that my parents saw fit to instill in me from youth. I have never forsaken it, and it has, and will continue to serve me admirably through this ordeal. For this, I am not ashamed. Perhaps most importantly, I know that God himself hears the cries of his servants. Ultimately, he will administer justice. With this comfort and assurance, I will never have reason to be ashamed.

“Return evil for evil to no one. Provide fine things in the sight of all men. If possible, as far as it depends upon YOU, be peaceable with all men. Do not avenge yourselves, beloved, but yield place to the wrath; for it is written: “Vengeance is mine; I will repay, says Jehovah.”—Romans 12:17-19

As is often my custom, I was at a local car wash on Central Avenue (Phoenix, AZ) this morning, washing my vehicle. The Federal agencies that provide covert surveillance always insure that local community policing group members participate in surveillance and psychological harassment when I am at this location. As usual, two of the vehicles near me were being washed by such individuals. I found one of them particularly interesting. She was of Hispanic origin, perhaps in her late-30’s. As she washed her car, I noticed welts and bruises on her thighs barely concealed by her shorts. Because of her light skin, these dark bruises were particularly noticeable. I then took careful note of her face. Her complexion was a map of small healed bruises and scrapes. While I am no expert in such matters, what I saw strongly suggested evidence of domestic violence.

That got me thinking. What if her abusive husband or boyfriend was also a member of the community policing groups participating in “gang-stalking?” Would the covert agencies sponsoring these groups shield him from any criminal prosecution because of his role in covert community policing activities? The military and law enforcement are both notoriously sexist domains where scandals of sexual abuse and harassment are all too common. I can easily imagine this woman being powerless and unprotected in such a “macho” culture.

This brought back to mind a “family” that lived in the apartment below mine in Albuquerque, New Mexico two years ago. They were used in the pattern of “gang stalking” and psychological attacks for the time I lived in that development. What a sad collection of individuals! The children in the “family” ranging in age from about seven to fifteen years old, would routinely be loitering on the complex grounds when most children were in school. They were often outdoors as late as 11 or 12 at night without any meaningful parental supervision. Clearly, their “parents” had little genuine interest in them. The “mother” in this group had a barely disguised alcohol problem that was visibly eating away her health. One night, after the scent of marijuana wafted into my bedroom window at about 2:00 in the morning, I came downstairs to discover one of the children, about 13 years old smoking “pot” with an adult I had not seen before. In truth, nothing they have done to me is nearly as bad as what they are doing to the minds of these impressionable youths. That is truly repugnant.

The seeming social instability of so many of the individuals used in these abusive programs never ceases to amaze me. What are their stories? I feel sorry for many of them. In some ways, they too are victims. I am convinced that the same system that is targeting me for harassment has little respect for the common folks used as little more than human “body armor” in their covert routines.

“Man has dominated man to his injury.”-Ecclesiates 8:9