THERE is a saying that ‘you can measure a man by the size of the things it takes to upset him.’ Indeed, the person who refuses to become upset by minor annoyances or offenses is a person of true stature. Such a person shows, not a petty attitude, but a largeness of mind and spirit. But one easily upset over trifles is guilty of smallness. And often that smallness further betrays itself by acts of spite.

What is spite? One dictionary defines spite as: “A malicious, usually petty, desire to harm, annoy, frustrate, or humiliate another person; Malicious ill will prompting an urge to hurt or humiliate.” As this definition reveals, the true motive behind spite is not justice, but rather “ill will” usually generated by hatred, envy, resentment or simply a mean disposition. What role does spite play in the directed energy weapons torture and gang-stalking used against me? They are being secretly tested on innocent Americans to develop a standardized program of psychological torture for covert agencies. Their intent is to harm, annoy, frustrate, and humiliate, out of malice. In essence, they are weapons of spite.

What is the best way of handling spiteful attacks? Popular thinking would suggest returning “tit for tat,” or retaliating in some fashion. However, is that the wise course? Perhaps the following illustration can help provide an answer: Suppose you’re in a supermarket one day, and happen to observe a small child begging her mother to purchase a bag of candy she holds in her little hands. However, the mother, for her own reasons, say no, and asks the child to return the candy to the shelf. Well, the child has a fit! She pouts, throws down the bag of candy, and begins to scream “I hate you!” She behaves spitefully, as children, due to their emotional immaturity are prone to do. Would you expect the mother to pout and have a tantrum in response? Of course not! You expect spiteful behavior of young children, not of mature adults. Let’s change the scenario a bit. The person attacking you spitefully is now an adult. His tools are directed energy weapons, through-the-wall surveillance, torture, and gang stalking. Should you respond out of spitefulness? No. The same principle applies: To respond spitefully will demonstrate pettiness and immaturity.

Being too big for spite is always the best response. Responding in a spiteful way brings the victim down to the level of his attacker, and can have disastrous consequences. In my case, being lured into an angry, spiteful response can result in incarceration or other personal harm.

Of course, maintaining emotional control can be a challenge when the spiteful attacks are part of a daily, 24 hour campaign. But it can, and is being done successfully. Much of my success comes from how I think. Let me illustrate it this way: Suppose you have two individuals that are quite similar, and you place a heavy weight on each of them. The first individual begins to complain unceasingly, allows the burden to overwhelm him, and is eventually weakened to the point that he is physically and mentally broken by the weight he is forced to carry. The second person sees the heavy load as a challenge, uses it to train and strengthen his muscles in much the way that a weightlifter does, and eventually becomes strong enough carry the load. Both had the same heavy weight. What made the difference between defeat and success? Mental attitude. Adversity is not all bad. When faced with the proper attitude, it can help us to strengthen weaknesses in our character and develop endurance. Those qualities add to our emotional maturity and equip us to face other challenges in life successfully, without resorting to spite.

It is the small spiteful mind that my attackers seek to lure, victimize, and destroy. The best defense? “Do not let yourself be conquered by the evil, but keep conquering the evil with the good.” - Romans 17:21. Rising above spite is the smartest defense! It will help us to avoid the regretful penalties of ill-advised spiteful retaliation . It also protects us from the harmful psychosomatic effects of harboring a spiteful attitude. It works!

The Price of Spite
Spiteful persons pay a heavy price for their actions. Bearing a grudge or hatred that breeds spite has well been termed “self-poison.” One cannot harbor hostility without reaping harmful psychosomatic effects. That is to say, what adversely affects the mind adversely affects the body and the bodily processes. The spiteful person hurts himself most. Those who torture their fellow man with directed energy weapons and gang-stalking do well to consider this. When spite is expressed as torture, its self destructive effects are intensified. “Our rich experience in Russia has shown that many (torturers) will become alcoholics or drug addicts, violent criminals or, at the very least, despotic and abusive fathers and mothers.” - Torture’s Long Shadow. This quote by Vladimir Bukovsky, a Russian author who spent nearly 12 years in Soviet prisons, labor camps and psychiatric hospitals for nonviolent human rights activities, reflects a truth that I’ve observed as well. Serial torture and harassment are self-destructive, unhealthy, and emotionally destabilizing occupations for the torturers. Many of them give evidence of serious alcohol abuse, drug dependency, and other behavioral problems no doubt aggravated by their profession. What they do ‘on-the-job’ spills over and poisons their health and personal lives. What a high price to pay for spite!

Some readers of my story have emailed and asked whether it is truthful to say that I (or anyone) has triumphed over victimization by directed energy weapons torture and gang-stalking even though the ordeal continues. What do you think?

Perhaps the following illustration will help you to see an enlightened view. Imagine you are told one day that you will be forced to play a basketball game against a team you’ve never met. In fact, you will be challenged by the same team every day. You cannot put any players on the court but yourself. However, the opposing team puts as many players in the game as it wants, cheats relentlessly, changes the rules to its advantage, and fouls you continually without penalty. They even stoop to harassing you at night in the hopes of making you too tired to play. Yet, in spite of these overwhelming and unfair odds, you find a way to win the game each day! Sometimes you win by a large margin. Some days the game is a struggle, and you win by only one point. Yet, you do win, each and every day against seemingly impossible odds.

Can you rightfully consider yourself a winner? Absolutely! You have become a champion against extraordinary odds! The fact that you will be forced to continue playing against this cruel team in no way diminishes your outstanding accomplishments!

This well illustrates the lives of solitary individuals targeted involuntarily by through-the-wall surveillance, torture and gang stalking. They are challenged on a daily basis by an unjust mob working in concert to attack, corrupt, and destroy. That mob will cheat, lie, and cruelly do whatever they can to win. They attack round-the-clock in an effort to make their prey too weak for the battle. Yet, on a daily basis, their victims confront the hurdles put before them, and overcome each one. They stay within the law despite intense provocation. They struggle to cope through tears and anguish. Yet, they continue to meet each test with admirable strength of character. Should their fine record be diminished or denied because the adversity continues? Never may that be so!

When we view the injustice we face as a daily challenge rather than one continuous battle the full scope of our accomplishments can be appreciated. On a daily basis, we prevail! Each day has its own struggles. Each day has its victories. The challenges we face continue only because our enemies have not prevailed in the daily battles against us! Even if the adversity is ongoing, without question it can truthfully be said that we have triumphed!

What is it like to be the victim of a government sponsored round-the-clock program of psychological battering and torture? I invite you to share a typical evening in my life of directed energy, through-the-wall surveillance and torture. Lets start in the early evening, when the program begins:

Evening: 11:00 PM till 3:00 AM
Like most of you, this is my time for sleeping. However, as a victim of wall-penetrating torture technology, sleep does not come easily. In the apartment below mine, government agents play loud grating music or create disturbing noises. This evening, it is rapid fire deep bass notes from a loudspeaker placed in the bedroom below mine. Each time I come close to falling asleep, the noise is fired up. The through-the-wall surveillance tools they use can monitor my heart rate and pulse. Therefore, they know exactly when my heart rate slows to the point that indicates I am falling asleep. At that moment, they use loud music to wake me up. This is repeated each time I begin to doze off, lasting for a couple of hours or so. Or they may choose to create a series of loud banging noises. Whatever does the job. The intended effect is to heighten my anxiety and anger. The physical side effect is my body’s production of stress hormones at a time when I should be fully relaxed. Well, I typically wear ear plugs to muffle the noise. They anticipate that. They use wall-penetrating acoustic weapons to send a heavy silent vibration through the walls or floor targeted at my head. Unlike audible noise, this is a silent sensation that is felt by my entire body. There is nothing I can do to protect myself from it. The vibrations resonate through my head, keep me awake, stressing my body, and affecting my equilibrium. Of course, none of my neighbors will be aware of this. The agents insure that any apartments adjoining mine, especially those in the path of the weapons, are empty. This insures that no witnesses accidentally hear or feel the effects of this technology.

To enhance the disruptive effect of their attack, a car alarm or horn may be synchronized to go off as they hit me with a wall-penetrating acoustic beam. These focused, infrasound beams cause limbs to jerk involuntarily as they pass through my body. There is more. The torturers may also use a microwave (millimeter wave) based wall-penetrating weapon as well. This creates a sensation that ranges from itching to intense localized pain. The two areas of my body most often targeted with this weapon are the face (eyes) and groin. The effects range from the sensation of being stabbed with needles to being burned with a hot iron. These weapons leave behind no physical scars or other evidence of trauma. They penetrate all commonly used home-building materials and are targeted with pinpoint accuracy.

I may also hear the sound of laughing or joking coming from one of the adjoining apartments. This rounds out the attack by adding an element of mockery to the harassment. It may appear that the apartments surrounding mine are occupied during the day. However, when I retire for the evening, the “occupants” leave and are replaced by a night shift of agents performing the torture and surveillance. Typically, I am rarely allowed to get more than three hours of continuous sleep. This pattern of torture is repeated every night, 365 days per year.

At 3:00 AM I am awakened again. This time, the nature of the torture changes . . .

3:00 AM until 8:00 AM
Normally as the evening progresses, the human body experiences longer patterns of deep sleep. However, this pattern is disrupted by the wall-penetrating weapons used against me. Typically, I am forced awake by either audible noise or silent wall-penetrating acoustic weapons at approximately 3:00 each morning. It typically may take one or two hours to fall back to sleep. During this period, my attackers may use noise or other irritants to stimulate my body’s stress response. When I finally fall asleep, perhaps about 4:00 AM, the acoustic / microwave beam weapons are targeted at my head at much higher levels ( I am not sure of the combination used). Because it is more difficult to awaken during this deep sleep period, the intense pressure caused by these wall-penetrating weapons may go undetected for hours. However, my brain knows it is under attack, and my body is producing unusually high levels of stress hormones to respond. It is only when I awaken unexpectedly that I become immediately aware of these weapons. I can hear the faint recycling of the weapons from the apartment below mine (they may also be targeting me from adjacent apartments and buildings) as they cycle and fire the rapid rounds of silent acoustic “bullets”. With my eyes closed, I can see flashes as each volley passes through my head. I can feel each round penetrate my head. There is no mistaking an attack by acoustic weapons for anything else. It is like experiencing all the effects of being hit in the head with a baseball bat minus the sound and physical impact. I suspect that the effects of these weapons may cause me to “pass out” during sleep. As a result, I may awake at 9:00 - 10:00 AM instead of my normal 6:00 - 7:00 AM waking time. When I finally do awake, the combined effects of sleep deprivation, acoustic weapons, and stress wreak its toll on my body. I am physically exhausted. The combination of sleep deprivation and acoustic weapons leave me in a mental fog and impairs my ability to concentrate. Instead of being refreshed, I am fatigued and irritable.

Sleep is essential for life. I am convinced that these cruel tests are designed to create a pattern of sleep deprivation and distress intended to mentally cripple or kill me. Daily sleep deprivation combined with artificial stimulation of stress hormones is a dangerous combination, almost certain to induce death in its victims if continued over a long period of time. It increases the risk of diseases including stroke, diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease. It is a known cause of mental disorders, including depression, and schizophrenia.

There is a secondary effect that my attackers seek to exploit: The likelihood of stress induced violence. Sleep deprivation impairs our emotional control in a way similar to alcohol intoxication. As my attackers combine this effect with their daily pattern of harassment, it is clear that they want me to respond in a way that destroys my reputation and leads to incarceration or suicide or death.

I ask you the reader, if government sponsored groups apply these cruel methods to an innocent citizen, every day, for more than ten years, what is the intent? In truth, this is an extended pattern of attempted murder.

Now that I am awake, and ready to start the day, a new phase of harassment begins . . . To be continued . . .

References:
The Economist Magazine, “Come Fry With Me” discussing microwave based weaponry
Defense Update: An Isreali defense magazine discussing Directed Acoustic Weapons currently being manufactured.

I began writing my account as a victim of involuntary testing with covert infrasonic and microwave (directed energy weapons) weapons about three years after the incidents began (about ten years ago). At first, I thought I was a target of a misguided law enforcement investigation. However, as time progressed the true motives behind this attack began to surface. I have written parts of my story as a fictionalized account for two reasons. First, the reader will not fully grasp what is happening to me with a dry accounting of facts. A sense of context, “the full picture” is better grasped by fictionalizing parts of the account to flesh out details. Secondly, there are many who will attack me for telling my story. They will question its veracity, and my sanity. For those who do, I give an easy way out. They can view it as a work of fiction and nothing more. However, the reasonable, open mind may well see the truth in my account.

ONE EVENING the nightmare begins. Without warning, you realize that you are the target of a cruel, unending campaign of psychological battering and torture with through-the-wall surveillance / hi-tech microwave and acoustic based weapons. You are never spoken to, never accused of a crime. Yet, the abuse continues for years. You are battered with covert through-the-wall weapons from adjoining apartments or nearby homes while you sleep at night. A coordinated campaign of psychological attacks occurs during the day. Its purpose is to wear you down, forcing you to react in a way that results in incarceration, homelessness, being declared mentally ill, suicide or death. Their mission is to isolate and destroy you mentally and physically. They will not stop until that is accomplished. It is all done covertly so that you cannot seek justice nor provide evidence of your abuse. Individuals cooperating in this cruel campaign are planted among your neighbors, workmates, and even in your place of worship. They provide a barrage of humiliating encounters while seeking to destroy your reputation.

This government surveillance and harassment uses a bogus “criminal investigation” as a cover, both to destroy your reputation and as an excuse for constant surveillance. It’s true motive is the testing of covert untraceable through-the-wall weapons and psychological warfare. You are chosen as a victim of this testing without consent.

In this revealing account that begins in Newark, New Jersey and is currently based in Phoenix, AZ (as of 2009, relocated back to Newark, NJ), we read one victims story of justice perverted. It reveals how covert new torture technologies give government agencies the power to target persons through the walls of their homes when coupled with through-the-wall surveillance. Perhaps, most importantly, this is a story of unbreakable integrity, courage and restraint by a man of faith under attack.

Read the next installment of this gripping account of government testing of through-the-wall torture technology on innocent Americans!