THERE is a saying that ‘you can measure a man by the size of the things it takes to upset him.’ Indeed, the person who refuses to become upset by minor annoyances or offenses is a person of true stature. Such a person shows, not a petty attitude, but a largeness of mind and spirit. But one easily upset over trifles is guilty of smallness. And often that smallness further betrays itself by acts of spite.

What is spite? One dictionary defines spite as: “A malicious, usually petty, desire to harm, annoy, frustrate, or humiliate another person; Malicious ill will prompting an urge to hurt or humiliate.” As this definition reveals, the true motive behind spite is not justice, but rather “ill will” usually generated by hatred, envy, resentment or simply a mean disposition. What role does spite play in the directed energy weapons torture and gang-stalking used against me? They are being secretly tested on innocent Americans to develop a standardized program of psychological torture for covert agencies. Their intent is to harm, annoy, frustrate, and humiliate, out of malice. In essence, they are weapons of spite.

What is the best way of handling spiteful attacks? Popular thinking would suggest returning “tit for tat,” or retaliating in some fashion. However, is that the wise course? Perhaps the following illustration can help provide an answer: Suppose you’re in a supermarket one day, and happen to observe a small child begging her mother to purchase a bag of candy she holds in her little hands. However, the mother, for her own reasons, say no, and asks the child to return the candy to the shelf. Well, the child has a fit! She pouts, throws down the bag of candy, and begins to scream “I hate you!” She behaves spitefully, as children, due to their emotional immaturity are prone to do. Would you expect the mother to pout and have a tantrum in response? Of course not! You expect spiteful behavior of young children, not of mature adults. Let’s change the scenario a bit. The person attacking you spitefully is now an adult. His tools are directed energy weapons, through-the-wall surveillance, torture, and gang stalking. Should you respond out of spitefulness? No. The same principle applies: To respond spitefully will demonstrate pettiness and immaturity.

Being too big for spite is always the best response. Responding in a spiteful way brings the victim down to the level of his attacker, and can have disastrous consequences. In my case, being lured into an angry, spiteful response can result in incarceration or other personal harm.

Of course, maintaining emotional control can be a challenge when the spiteful attacks are part of a daily, 24 hour campaign. But it can, and is being done successfully. Much of my success comes from how I think. Let me illustrate it this way: Suppose you have two individuals that are quite similar, and you place a heavy weight on each of them. The first individual begins to complain unceasingly, allows the burden to overwhelm him, and is eventually weakened to the point that he is physically and mentally broken by the weight he is forced to carry. The second person sees the heavy load as a challenge, uses it to train and strengthen his muscles in much the way that a weightlifter does, and eventually becomes strong enough carry the load. Both had the same heavy weight. What made the difference between defeat and success? Mental attitude. Adversity is not all bad. When faced with the proper attitude, it can help us to strengthen weaknesses in our character and develop endurance. Those qualities add to our emotional maturity and equip us to face other challenges in life successfully, without resorting to spite.

It is the small spiteful mind that my attackers seek to lure, victimize, and destroy. The best defense? “Do not let yourself be conquered by the evil, but keep conquering the evil with the good.” - Romans 17:21. Rising above spite is the smartest defense! It will help us to avoid the regretful penalties of ill-advised spiteful retaliation . It also protects us from the harmful psychosomatic effects of harboring a spiteful attitude. It works!

The Price of Spite
Spiteful persons pay a heavy price for their actions. Bearing a grudge or hatred that breeds spite has well been termed “self-poison.” One cannot harbor hostility without reaping harmful psychosomatic effects. That is to say, what adversely affects the mind adversely affects the body and the bodily processes. The spiteful person hurts himself most. Those who torture their fellow man with directed energy weapons and gang-stalking do well to consider this. When spite is expressed as torture, its self destructive effects are intensified. “Our rich experience in Russia has shown that many (torturers) will become alcoholics or drug addicts, violent criminals or, at the very least, despotic and abusive fathers and mothers.” - Torture’s Long Shadow. This quote by Vladimir Bukovsky, a Russian author who spent nearly 12 years in Soviet prisons, labor camps and psychiatric hospitals for nonviolent human rights activities, reflects a truth that I’ve observed as well. Serial torture and harassment are self-destructive, unhealthy, and emotionally destabilizing occupations for the torturers. Many of them give evidence of serious alcohol abuse, drug dependency, and other behavioral problems no doubt aggravated by their profession. What they do ‘on-the-job’ spills over and poisons their health and personal lives. What a high price to pay for spite!

Some readers of my story have emailed and asked whether it is truthful to say that I (or anyone) has triumphed over victimization by directed energy weapons torture and gang-stalking even though the ordeal continues. What do you think?

Perhaps the following illustration will help you to see an enlightened view. Imagine you are told one day that you will be forced to play a basketball game against a team you’ve never met. In fact, you will be challenged by the same team every day. You cannot put any players on the court but yourself. However, the opposing team puts as many players in the game as it wants, cheats relentlessly, changes the rules to its advantage, and fouls you continually without penalty. They even stoop to harassing you at night in the hopes of making you too tired to play. Yet, in spite of these overwhelming and unfair odds, you find a way to win the game each day! Sometimes you win by a large margin. Some days the game is a struggle, and you win by only one point. Yet, you do win, each and every day against seemingly impossible odds.

Can you rightfully consider yourself a winner? Absolutely! You have become a champion against extraordinary odds! The fact that you will be forced to continue playing against this cruel team in no way diminishes your outstanding accomplishments!

This well illustrates the lives of solitary individuals targeted involuntarily by through-the-wall surveillance, torture and gang stalking. They are challenged on a daily basis by an unjust mob working in concert to attack, corrupt, and destroy. That mob will cheat, lie, and cruelly do whatever they can to win. They attack round-the-clock in an effort to make their prey too weak for the battle. Yet, on a daily basis, their victims confront the hurdles put before them, and overcome each one. They stay within the law despite intense provocation. They struggle to cope through tears and anguish. Yet, they continue to meet each test with admirable strength of character. Should their fine record be diminished or denied because the adversity continues? Never may that be so!

When we view the injustice we face as a daily challenge rather than one continuous battle the full scope of our accomplishments can be appreciated. On a daily basis, we prevail! Each day has its own struggles. Each day has its victories. The challenges we face continue only because our enemies have not prevailed in the daily battles against us! Even if the adversity is ongoing, without question it can truthfully be said that we have triumphed!

Let’s imagine for the moment, that we can peer into the future. Not too far. Perhaps fifteen or twenty years. By that time, there are possibly millions of members of government-sponsored citizen watch groups worldwide that operate gang-stalking and directed energy surveillance and torture operations in industrialized nations. Secret police organizations consider this a way to punish dissenters and “undesirables.” In fact, no matter what city you live in, every apartment complex and every neighborhood block has at least one representative of a gang-stalking organization in residence.

Now imagine that you are perhaps a thirty-something-year-old, working for a branch of one of the major corporations in a mid-sized city. Your mother has been a proud member of one of the gang-stalking groups for over twenty years. Yet, you disagree with their ideology, and never joined. Well, one day, in a casual telephone conversation at work you make a very unflattering remark about a powerful local politician. The call is picked up and recorded in a wiretap by the local branch of a government security agency. The comments in that call make their way back to that politician. Not liking what you said, he secretly retaliates. He calls a friend who heads one of the local citizen watch groups, giving him your name. As a result, that same day, you become the target of 24 hour surveillance, directed energy weapons harassment and gang-stalking.

By this time in future history, most licensed businesses have at least one representative of a citizen policing (gang-stalking) group employed. In fact, most companies are now under covert pressure to give preference to members of gang-stalking groups. It is considered a pro-security, patriotic gesture to do so. In reality, it creates a network of gang-stalkers that infects business and organizations at all levels. Now that you are a target of one of these groups, the full impact of their wide-ranging influence becomes manifest. It insinuates its cruel hand into every facet of your life. Suddenly despite an excellent work history, you are treated with contempt by your employer, who happens to be a member of a national civilian security group. In fact, you are harassed and bullied to the point that you quit your job. Neighbors you had a good relationship with for years begin to shun you. Some would like to keep your friendship. But they are under pressure to support the stalkers. You see, their children will be harassed in school by gang stalking classmates and teachers if they don’t cooperate. Out of concern for their own safety, they sever your friendship and begin to support the campaign of harassment. Your resources, both emotional and material are quickly depleted. Many members of your own family begin to shun you. You begin to think about suicide. You become bitterly angry. The persecution, sleep deprivation, psychological and physical torture intensifies. They will not stop until you are destroyed.

The arguments over what has happened to you strains your family to the breaking point. Your mother, a long-time supporter of gang-stalking now sees for the first time the extraordinary damage done by the organizations she has faithfully supported. Rifts develop as family members blame her for what has happened to you. Yet, she too is helpless. If she were to show any support for you it would put her own security in peril. She too would be targeted. The truth is, neighborhoods, cities, entire countries are now in the grips of a hidden fear. No one can be trusted. The person that triggers your persecution could be your sixteen-year-old cousin, or the guy working in the next cubicle. The extraordinary power of the governments to monitor and track every citizen has made life a fearful routine. The facade of “freedom’ remains in many nations, but the deadly stench of oppression seeps through its’ cracks. Formal justice systems become weaker and more corrupt as they are abandoned for the “quick-fix” that gang-stalking and related schemes seem to provide. A police state mentality and informant culture more subtle and pervasive than any in past history takes root in industrialized nations and matures.

Is this glimpse into the near future improbable? The technology and organizations to make this possible are in full operation today. And, gang-stalking and directed energy torture is being practiced in numerous industrialized nations. Persons who engage in and craft these cruel intrigues are short-sighted. They do not think of the corrosive, long-term effects it will have upon society. It will make the world far worse for their own children. Honestly, it is not a question of whether or not this scenario will occur. It has occurred, and will only get worse. In the next fifteen years we will be facing the question of what will destroy us first: Mans’ inhumanity to his fellowman or the collapse of our ecology. Unless God himself steps in to stop man from his self -destructive course we are headed for certain disaster!

As the days pass, the likelihood of finding an expose of the testing / torture of American citizens with Electromagnetic (EMF) Weapons in the major media increases. Until then, an excellent alternative news source is Project Censored, an online resource for newsworthy information and events ignored by the major media. They provide an excellent history of the research into electromagnetic (EMF) weapons and provide evidence that strongly suggests their testing and development on innocent, unwitting, Americans (EMF weapons can be tuned to be remote weapons of torture, bodily injury, and death). The article discusses the role of the intelligence community in the United States in research related human rights violations. It is worthwhile reading. Click here for the Project Censored web site (the article is a .pdf downloadable file.

IF YOU take a close look at the butterfly in this photo, you will see that its wings have sustained quite a bit of damage. Yet, that butterfly will continue feeding and flying in spite of damage suffered from predator attacks. In fact, butterflies have been observed going about their daily activity with up to 70 percent of their wing surfaces missing. It’s incredible that something that appears to be so delicate can live a full life in spite of suffering so much adversity. Similarly, many people can display a resolute spirit. Despite suffering from great personal hardships, they do not give up. Like the butterfly, they may appear weak or insignificant to the human eye. But they possess an inner strength that enables them to move forward.

This can be true of victims of psychological torture that includes gang-stalking and covert through-the-wall torture weapons. Their strength can be demonstrated by refusing to abandon high principles when facing the cruelty and spitefulness of their persecutors. Is such restraint an act of weakness or courage? A recent article in Psychology Today (April 2008, Second Nature) corrects a common misperception regarding courage. “It (courage) is motivated not by fearlessness, but by a strong sense of duty. People who behave bravely often say they were afraid at the time, says Cynthia Pury, a psychologist at Clemson University. But their principles forced them to take action.” Exercising restraint under a continuous barrage of aggravated provocation is a principled action that requires great courage.

The victims of long-term gang-stalking and related forms of abuse demonstrate a courageous adherence to Christian principles when they refuse to adopt the spiteful actions of their persecutors. They remain loyal to Bible principles such as “Return evil for evil to no one” - Romans 12:17. Such courage is an essential component of their success in overcoming the adversity thrust upon them.

I often use the word “victim” in my writing to describe my role as a target of long term secret police tactics (including gang-stalking) and torture with through-the-wall weapons. However, my use of that word may be a bit misleading. The truth is, I lead a meaningful, productive and happy life in spite over ten years of covert psychological and physical torture. My health is not compromised by the psychosomatic effects of bitterness and stress. Perhaps most importantly, I have not been seduced by my antagonists’ efforts to dominate and control my thinking and actions. I have resolutely rejected the seductive call of violence, spitefulness, and petty hatred. I stand as a powerful example before the criminal psychologists, weapons developers, and sociologists behind my persecution. They may understand the criminal mind, but cannot fathom the noblest of qualities such as integrity, courage, and humility. While my abusers can rightfully be accused of a myriad of injustices stemming from spite, hubris and cruelty, they cannot point to a single incident of retaliation. I have not even uttered a word of profanity in their presence. Does that sound like a helpless victim to you?

The qualities and principles I live by have served me admirably. You will often see references to Bible principles and characters in my writing. It is the best guidebook for coping with any adversity. I have not handled each situation perfectly, nor should I be expected to. However, taken on the whole, I have become the victor, not the victim. My adversaries have willingly given themselves over to the practice of cruel injustice without a struggle. I have resisted the unremitting call of barbarism and malice. In no way have I adopted the thinking and behavior of my enemies. Each days’ struggle in this regard has been met and overcome. That is true victory! In the light of this truth, who would you say is the real victim?

This past week I experienced two incidents which reminded me of the spirit and motives behind the gang-stalking and infrasonic / microwave weapons harassment I have undergone for the past few years. The first took place in my local library (Phoenix Library, Main Branch, Phoenix, Arizona). I observed a fellow in the business section poring over business journals and newspapers related to the stock market. Obviously he was a businessman of some sort, the intense look as he read revealing deep personal concern and interest. A much older, poorly dressed man approached him, evidently a poverty stricken Native American, quietly asking for a small handout. His approach was timid and apologetic, motivated by necessity. The businessman, quickly becoming irritated, began to loudly castigate the old man, demanding that he find a job rather than look for handouts. It was a humiliating display. And, judging by the businessman’s tone of voice, it was meant to be. The older Native American quietly walked away, uttering no response.

Feeling superior to others is a dangerous thing. When we are convinced that others are less worthy than ourselves, it can create a cruel and domineering spirit as that brief episode demonstrated. A simple, quiet reply by the businessman would have been a sufficient rejection, and, would have preserved the old man’s dignity as well. However, the businessman saw no need to treat someone he viewed condescendingly with even a modicum of respect.

It was with that observation fresh in my mind that a second incident occurred the following day. This time, I was personally involved. I was driving in the South Mountain Park / Preserve (Phoenix, Arizona) this past weekend to photograph the spring wildflowers that are in bloom. The part of the preserve best known for spring wildflower displays, is only open on the weekends from sunrise to sunset. At other times, a locked gate prevents entry. I drove into this area (the gate was open) about an hour before sunset this past Sunday. A Park Rangers’ vehicle was partially blocking one lane just past the entrance, having arrived just before I did. The Park Ranger had left the vehicle, and was walking in a forested area near the road. I stopped and asked him if the area was still open. I was not sure what to make of his vehicle partially blocking the road. The ranger said that they were closing the road. It was 4:38 in the afternoon, more than an hour before sunset. To my thinking, this was an odd decision. So I asked why they were closing it so early when the sign said “open sunrise to sunset.?”

Well, in less than a minute, a second Park Ranger appeared, approached my car and joined the conversation. I simply wanted to know why, just as I entered the area, that the decision was made to close it, and not at sunset as the posted sign indicates. As the conversation progressed, my manner of speaking began having a pronounced effect on these two Rangers. Let me explain why. I am the sort of person who grooms and dresses himself with dignity at all times. I have taught public speaking for over ten years, and spent many years in corporate environments. I know how to communicate respectfully yet emphatically without profanity or disrespect. Simply because of the way I spoke and conducted myself, the rangers began to think that perhaps I was a high-powered official with the Parks Department or City government who had caught them closing the gate too early. They became overly apologetic and extremely helpful as a result. I could see that they were in fear for their jobs, and were trying to find a way to know what office I held or represented. In that moment, I held a measure of power over those Park Rangers. It was the same power that businessman held as he was approached for a handout by the old man. How should I use that power? How did I use it?

I did not want to leave those Park Rangers with the wrong impression. It would be wrong to abuse the power I held at that moment. I thanked the Rangers for their work and assured them that I respected their authority. I also assured them that I was asking out of disappoint because of not being able to photograph the wildflowers (near sunset is one of the best times of the day for landscape photography) and would honor their decision. What fleeting power I held in that moment dissipated. I corrected any false impressions they held and left on good terms with both men.

However, I must admit to the brief temptation to use the power I held over those men in that moment as a tool of humiliation. After all, I have been repeatedly abused by those who hold an authority like these men. Shouldn’t I, in some way, take it out on these men, if only in speech? Never may that happen! I firmly reject the lure of power abused, sticking to the superior principles I have been taught since youth. Remember the “Golden Rule?” “Do unto others as you would have them do to you.” I strive to treat others the way I want others to treat me. Not the way I am treated. That “Golden Rule” did not govern the actions of the abusive businessman I had observed earlier. Nor does it govern the lives of persons employed in gang-stalking and psychological and physical torture. Offer ordinary people a chance to employ a cruel abusive power over others, and many will accept. It is an addictive thrill to abuse others, an alluring temptation to the imperfect mind and heart. Unless we make a concerted effort to adopt and stick to higher principles at all times (such as the “Golden Rule”), we will easily be lured by the abuse of power!

I began writing my account as a victim of involuntary testing with covert infrasonic and microwave (directed energy weapons) weapons about three years after the incidents began (about ten years ago). At first, I thought I was a target of a misguided law enforcement investigation. However, as time progressed the true motives behind this attack began to surface. I have written parts of my story as a fictionalized account for two reasons. First, the reader will not fully grasp what is happening to me with a dry accounting of facts. A sense of context, “the full picture” is better grasped by fictionalizing parts of the account to flesh out details. Secondly, there are many who will attack me for telling my story. They will question its veracity, and my sanity. For those who do, I give an easy way out. They can view it as a work of fiction and nothing more. However, the reasonable, open mind may well see the truth in my account.

ONE EVENING the nightmare begins. Without warning, you realize that you are the target of a cruel, unending campaign of psychological battering and torture with through-the-wall surveillance / hi-tech microwave and acoustic based weapons. You are never spoken to, never accused of a crime. Yet, the abuse continues for years. You are battered with covert through-the-wall weapons from adjoining apartments or nearby homes while you sleep at night. A coordinated campaign of psychological attacks occurs during the day. Its purpose is to wear you down, forcing you to react in a way that results in incarceration, homelessness, being declared mentally ill, suicide or death. Their mission is to isolate and destroy you mentally and physically. They will not stop until that is accomplished. It is all done covertly so that you cannot seek justice nor provide evidence of your abuse. Individuals cooperating in this cruel campaign are planted among your neighbors, workmates, and even in your place of worship. They provide a barrage of humiliating encounters while seeking to destroy your reputation.

This government surveillance and harassment uses a bogus “criminal investigation” as a cover, both to destroy your reputation and as an excuse for constant surveillance. It’s true motive is the testing of covert untraceable through-the-wall weapons and psychological warfare. You are chosen as a victim of this testing without consent.

In this revealing account that begins in Newark, New Jersey and is currently based in Phoenix, AZ, we read one victims story of justice perverted. It reveals how covert new torture technologies give government agencies the power to target persons through the walls of their homes when coupled with through-the-wall surveillance. Perhaps, most importantly, this is a story of unbreakable integrity, courage and restraint by a man of faith under attack.

Read the next installment of this gripping account of government testing of through-the-wall torture technology on innocent Americans!